Coming from a place of Fury. Never go to sleep with an angry mind so I saved it for waking up on my side of the bed.
Move two steps and three paces backwards, doubts plague me. Dementia ‘s grey cloak veils all I want to retain in my head.
The sheep get weary before I do.
I watch them sleep.
Wolf-like I want to smash through them. Fangs connect -impact on bone and tissue -a red massacre.
I need colour in my life.
This visceral creativity is swallowing me whole. I’m in the bottle – blurred images are all I see on the horizon.
Spin the bottle,maybe I will land in a place with less strife.
Cramming in mouthfuls of
head battering, assault weapons of thoughts.
I’m bloated to the state that my discontentment leaves me, like a sleepy wide-eyed owl – manic in my state – shoving in fistfuls – I need to lucubrate.
Nothing sticks except the whiff of the end of a successful selling day at a Parisian fish market.
I am the babe the market seller gave birth to. Times up for this broody bird to incubate.
Cord snapped with a fish gutting knife. Abandoned the moment money exchanged hands.
Only enough for a Meal for one. Survival is my greatest chance. Nurture myself and hone in on any innate talents now, so I can control the succession of Fates brass bands.
It is my birthday. I get one day to shine. Tomorrow I could be slapped away with one salty breathe, inflicted wounds forgotten with yesterday’s newspapers headlines.
I came into this world with the cards I was dealt. I can cry a Seines- full of tears for the life that could have got caught up in the catch of the day fisherman’s net lines.
I refuse to be that inmate -on a bed of foliage, with one glassy eye, staring up at you. Doesn’t matter how well you dress me up – my fate is not to be found in a 5-star Michelin restaurant.
Grill me, poach me, puree me- see what happens when you try and throw me in the oil fryer.
This amphibian has wings of hope. Higher consciousness has blessed me with a generous grant.
I soar above all the conventional career options for my kind.
I will never be normal and for that, I will not apologise.
Evolved -a hybrid.
I have to decline your maverick binds.
Today I walk with two legs and two eyes looking forward. Destiny is a start and thanks to you, dear mother,for letting me find my own way.
I took my life into my own hands – my heart beats with passion,drive, ambition and the fear.
I have made it this far – so either stick by me and support me in what I do or feel free to stand out of my way and go astray.
Posted on Aug 23, 2016, in EXPERIMENTAL WRITING and tagged Creativity, Emotions, EXPERIMENTAL WRITING, Mental Wellbeing, motivation, MY BRAIN -MY THOUGHTS, passion, self expression, Vocabulary, word of the day, Writing challenges, writing prompts. Bookmark the permalink. 44 Comments.