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Today’s prompt is to write a quote of I’m how I view or define nature.

My quote

And so the Sun rises; the ūüĆł ‘s bloom too

And so nature will yearn for the frosted morning dew.

Rebirth will follow,  fear not for dawn will always follow Рanew.

It turned into A borderline quote /poetry. This activity intends to have fun with it.

I’m thinking about what element of nature I think I’m more like and why I feel I’m like that element so that I elaborate on the characteristics and personality I feel an¬† affinity with.

I’ve always loved the water.¬† Still, waters run deep.
I’ve also noticed I can be mercurial, have my head in the clouds and chatty.

I may turn this into a type of poem. I’m not sure what kind of poem to write
There are so many to choose from.

Free verse

My favourite poem is by an unknown author

Freshard & Stanley Brinks

If you like a to embrace world music  & understand the importance of celebrating different cultures then  I’d definitely recommend Stanley Brink & Freshard.

If you like Tequila sunrises then  this is the kind of gig I’d recommend going to go.

Natural Born story tellers & Travellers & Chanteuses.

Stanley Brinks ( Andr√© Herman D√ľne)  was born in Paris. His lyrics & overall laidback vibe  conjures up feelings about the need for a balanced society who recognise the limits of capitalism & voices a necessary voice for the pros of living with a more socialist outlook ,in terms of  the sub culture & influence it has  on the musical  community

  • Socially
  • Politically
  • Pure entertainment

Music & culture is only good as the people.


Stanley Brinks has  lived and travelled to Berlin,Malta & USA

He has recorded over 100 albums under various different moniker names.

He has  collaborated with the New York   anti folk under ground scene.

This is the second time I’ve seen him collaborate with  the cheeky, pure vocals of Burgundy,France Clemence Freshard, Her effect is to capture the rooms attention (with a ukulele , bass guitar ) ,a day dreamer who knows what a good dose of reality feels like.

These are  necessary voices in the music scene


They highlight the importance of embracing all cultures, keeping an open mind & keeping a level head  if we are to understand the balance linked with  the economy climate  shifts & the impact  it has on  cultures infographics


A Live gigs with down to earth people ,impromptu nights, going with the flow turned into a  great night an anti establishment ,non violent protest to enjoy music without boundaries.

They allow moments to indulge in nostalgia  whilst inviting an audience to question the world we live in.

Check out their new album on Bandcamp



A poem from a strange daughter

If  foresight revealed you would  always  remain  my biggest fan

then in retrospect, I’m certain you wished that you had made a better escape plan.

I type these words weary & mothered out.

Wondering how I can still love a child who dismisses me without having to shout.

I do.

Mostly love

Mostly nag & figure motherhood out.

Is it worth it?

Life is fleeting.

these words would sound better if interpreted by a Geisha learning how to interpret the I Ching.

Silver linings

strive to find a purpose.

Whatever doesn’t kill you makes you may make you stronger

It also makes one weary and often a bit teary.

 I carry on the tradition

light  your cake as a reminder

that without you there would be no fire lit in my belly savouring the meaning of meaning.

Life is a celebration, a trial and cursed blessing.

I have no words to convey how much I have sinned.

To quote a¬†wise lady I’ll be happy if I can be a quarter the lady my mother is when…

she draws the curtains on her solo performance of a life lived.

life would have been sung by the haunting blues & myriad¬†cherubs singing¬†‘Elysium exists’ hymn after hymn.

Happy birthday Р psalm 58 to the creator of  hope & faith

a celebration to your mortality.

Insightful are those who keep a track of the moments lived in the presence

& know how to make all of it count.

G.O.A.T Track of the day

I’m a massive admirer of french artist, GUTS. I discovered his music a few years back with  the epic ‘ les bienheureux’ album produced by wax labels, 2007, who’ve  released  albums such as ‘Nightmares on wax presents ‘Nightmares on wax’

Bob powers ( Tribe called quest, Roots) took him under his wing and schooled him on how to keep his flavor full of flavor.

He’s a full trained four star chef!

His early music influences come from hip hop artists such as  KRS ONE and Public enemy.

His music reflects  his love of traveling and cultures and his fascination with cuisine.GUTS has exotic flavor  Some one who travels  extensively to  places like Senegal- has to be  conscious about global social issues.

 I have huge respect for any artist who uses their talent and works to explore urgent issues that need addressing. His music is  mostly mixed samples, electronic , hip hop beats with plenty of instrumental tracks.

Instrumental tracks tend to heighten our emotions in a way that classical music does. It forces our brains to interpret and understand the wider themes at play when listening to a song.

His love affair with hip hop began in the 80’s ,with GUTS sat in a Bronx apartment sampling thousands of tracks on his Akai MPC midi drum machine and mini sampler.

One of my favorite songs on the ‘Les bienheureux’ album is ‘the living is easy’ recorded using an Akai MPC 4000 midi /sampler. It’s simply superb. If you enjoy your animation  visuals then give this one a watch.

My Second favorite song is ‘Want it back ‘ featuring Patrice, taken off the album HIP HOP AFTER ALL’ – The video is worth the watch too. It speaks of the bigger issues plaguing our children’s future. The kids chorus disarms  with a blunt  message:



Another one of my favorite tracks is ‘Living like pigs’ taken off the 2009 album ‘Freedom’

Damn this  is a fine beat. He samples one simple loop – taken from the 1970’s track ‘The garden of Jane Delawney” by Francoise Hardy

The speech at the intro ( Mr Freedom, 1961,film) always gives me the  chills. It’s  like a wake up call to arouse our humanity.

To begin with, I’m gonna tell you the land of Freedom

is all about,

.No, you’re not dreaming‚Ķ.that land exists, Ladies and Gentlemen, you have been living like pigs‚Ķ Open your eyes‚Ķ‚Ķ


The  words are hard hitting and blends  in with the  soma-like effect melody  threaded through out the song.

The entire song has a hypnotizing effect which I’d interpret as how people in our society easily grow bloated by over consumerism.

To me ,It speaks of the loss of humanity. Its such a simplistic beat yet; it sets off a complex array of emotions.

Here is the original  song that GUTS sampled.


Pretty sweet!





Mononome is back with this track-Sheran

I have fallen for the Arabian -opera  fusion adds  a  textural backdrop to the soundscape

Weird fact mononome is of Armenian origin and relates to numerology.

I’m unable to find the meaning of the Greek producer and Artist of the same name.

Thought of the day

Life is short. Yes, it is but then again – so is my fuse. ūüėČ Don’t let the stressful moments blow your world apart, or your mind. Blow cool to chill and enjoy.

We don’t know what is waiting on the other side of life unless we have a firm belief. An absolute.

I prefer to keep an open mind. That’s why I relate to the most obscure plethora of music genres

I take great pleasure in exploring new sounds, sounds that are not perfect. Experimental creative sounds that aren’t 100% perfect.

Certain songs I listen to usually give me a better appreciation for the songs when I’ve jada chance to engage & talk to the artists about their works and lives even. force me to take notice and engage critically.



I’ve recently come across an artist who I’ve followed on twitter for a while I guess. our paths crossed coincidently.  I prefer to use the words a meaningful coincidence- Synchronicity. 6GMAG clicked on a random Youtube video I’d posted & we started talking about music, life, struggles, COVID, motivation, regret, inspiration & mental health issues.

He isn’t ready to do a feature & that is his choice. I will be as authentic as I can writing about him and his music whilst maintaining his privacy.

His stories, snippets, messages inspired me to appreciate his music more because I understood where he had been and is and what he is focusing on.

Great news to hear how he is  back in the studio creating music with a self condifence that he could create without certain negative bandmates, disrespectful  rappers in his life.

Small words grow into letters, speeches, musings, poems, diaries, thoughts, conversations, essays, books, blog posts, articles and whatever the limit you put on your dreams!


Don’t fear clouds; don’t have woe about fear of sunshine -look at your flow. Check your moves and step up and get down with your own boogie. Blame the vibes on your boogie It’s all good.

Thursday’s child came from the willows, loved Daisies and surrounded herself with goats,wild misfits and cool music vibes – feeling silly


Date Interrupted

Some Dates – Not all men can handle a strong womare sweet when you remember them…

Valentine’s day.

One minute, you are planning for your big wedding day.

Three months later and your baby girl is going to BIG school and asking for a baby sister – not a baby brother .


Because Mommy may have told her boys stink!


Mommy may have said

‘woah-easy- who do you think has to carry this brother or sister of yours?’

‘Daddy’ – came her reply.

If only……..

Oh, I  do wonder how excited men would get about making babies if they knew what they had in store for them ?

9 months of mind and body possession.






All totally worth it of course…. ūüėČ

I mean, then you look at this “cute” child of yours.

Then the compliments come flooding in –

“Just the spitting image of you”. 

Now, not only are you Fat- not pregnant – baby is out – but you have  an Alien baby who apparently looks just like you do!

it’s not like you can just go –

oooooh, Stork -here is some butter – take him/her away and bring me who I dreamed about giving birth too.


Do or don’t.

My little lady turned out so delightful that, to be honest, if I hadn’t been at the birth – high on gas and air – and sick to my stomach- and felt that push and was stitched around my V.J. parts,all the way around like a hem of a skirt . I would tell you –

She isn’t mine.

I’m Night – she is Day.

Mending my ways – as the days go by.

Screwing up – with no need for any suicide squad of any kind to aid me.


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What am I going to to do with my day ?


It is three fucking am in the morning and I am reading about training, my masters, worrying about mother /wife/daughter / friend /duties, bills, life…

SOCS got interrupted – this girl got interrupted by my little lady.

Storytime and Stream of consciousness . I did the bathtime and Bella  had lots of mommy time with me today.

Nope – she still won’t go away…..

Oh, she has gone.

I ignored my sweet child. well, I didn’t give her my full attention…


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Catch the kisses!



I have a head full – no space.

I’ve got more responsibilities coming.

Usually, I am fucking chuffed to bits – it has dawned on me -what a  huge role being  a WRAP facilitator is –

Oh, don’t get me wrong, dearie… I have my pre-reading prep to do and I have been   giving  the opportunity to do this training.

  I get to give hope  to people in a manner  that a lot of people who have suffered abuse and trauma may  have never encountered.


I’m no fucking teacher. They say : you are the best expert on yourself’ and that it 100% accurate.

One year ago I did this program as a student and now

…. well, shit just got different.

That brings me to the first ever Masters course with the Open university on Creative writing.

Of course, I can do this. No big deal.

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Just a thought  Sweet dates are just nom nom but my current  diet  intake needs to include more than 3 types of food.

Sugar  lows are a bitch.

Yeah, I want to come off the sugar.

Recovery is limitless.

No limits!

Trust, empathy and giving my time and working with others are a few  of my strengths- it took me a long time to realise it.

I lost my confidence these last few months. I lost some weight and it scared the crap out of me. I am not going back into any eating disorder clinic

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Time in there stops.

Dates become meaningless  but I was always the rabbit running around,with that ‘ off with her  head’ queen mentality of mine –

with things to do –

Things that I expected me to do

– and if I was late ?

Well…..  as much as my mind can drive me into  states of

‘I don’t want to be me today’ .

I know I have a great mind.

When I put my mind to it.

I achieve and succeed in ways that still impress me.

So, I am trying to write myself out of a panic attack of sorts.

I’m not the kind of girl who goes I will settle for a pass – I want a fucking first. My mind darts here ,there and everywhere-



Talking about my degree again .

I still exercise -even though I don’t have a wedding dress  to fit into anymore.

The time is now for my inner fat lady to get my weights worth in Lard food!

I do know what makes me unwell and what makes me well.

I can’t fecking blame ignorance-

Aye , it is bliss ( I am suddenly Irish).

Thing is , I know that  I’m running out of time.

The battle has been taken into the arena and I am getting battered.

I’ve given a few uppercut ,hook  and jabs –

fist down –

no flicking at the elbows .

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Still, it is  my mind -so, either way, it is going to need bandaging.

I am a mummy!

That is so bad -crucify me, now, please!

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So the battle ain’t over until her majesty of hearts takes a chill pill –  an eternal one – like a ring -send her ass right up Uranus . Ha ,yeah you can have her.

I know my rights. I can divorce this bitch!

My energy  and drive and passion and






 need to  be transformed  into a wielding sword of success.



We make our own Fates.

there’s me doing that rhyming thing again.

I needed to get this out of my head before I ………….

No,giving up was never an option, so don’t worry about it ( in an Italian accent)

One last thing ,why do I get my Reds on a full moon?

Yeah, that  came out- exactly  how I wanted it to.

Reason being: well, it would explain why the hell I have been all over the place of late but I know the true reason.

Oooh, I have just gone all sexist on my own mind!

Conditioned or what – pass me the Febreze.

I need to be kind with myself, look after myself, praise myself, see who I really am, remember my true worth.

Shit like that

It does help.

I am living proof.

I am living proof.

I am still on this planet.


Living. Proof.

That is me done!