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A book for the inner child

What a wonderful Christmas present ūüéĀ for those beautiful souls who make our existence more meaningful.

This debut novel from Affinity triangle follows a young protagonist girl called Sith ( Peace)& her father Gaol ( Love).

They go on a journey across the Moors to find the young girls mother, Firinn ( Truth) her mother’s lover.

In each chapter, Sith and Gaol come across many creatures and entities who represent different things.

The premise of this book is about mental & spiritual growth.

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Sunny disposition’s shadow.

Harried. Hurried. Life pulls me into its vortex.

 Tears drip,  sealing up  presents protected in pink wrapping paper. 

She is growing too old, too quickly . Nauseating -left sickly.

Guilt erodes my cavernous mind -echoes dart all  around.  

So triste. If only I could plug in a pair of earphones so you can hear my ¬† heart’s melody- a ¬†melancholic ¬†cacophony of unequal distributed ¬†sound.



A new day and it’s time to celebrate.

Cake and food and balloons to check off the list. 

Snacks, goats cheese quiche. ¬† They don’t do a version called hashish.



Slide my cell phone¬†out, ¬†to check how many ¬†miles I’ve clocked¬†on my fitness app. Gravity does an honorable job of conforming to what I’ve been told it should do when my phone disconnects from ¬†my hand.

Shattered glass. I scream:

No, not the screen! 

Smoke ablaze, allow me to atone for my karmic debt. Soul let me be clean.

God theory РSpiritual . Analytical Рmy faith is still reciprocal. 

Hope making up  punch in  the fruit aisle. Grapes ,peaches, grab a sack of bananas.

The ¬†educated children won’t¬†remember the birthday girl if we don’t get 22 packets of individually ¬†wrapped Haribo¬†sweets for them to take home.¬†

Sugar rush -sweeten the crush . No huge party Р with a whole class invited to practice nurse and doctors with up to date human body scanners.




Masters of writing .Deadlines.

Party time or Mommy will get stuck with the craziest  fine.



Rain – divine. Only when wrapped up ¬†in a duvet in my precious bed – liken it to someone’s¬†favorite merlot wine.

Bus. Wind. Howling and scowling. A face – a perfect reflection of the weather.

Dentistry. High priority. Teeth fixed.

Smile and show off your invisible vulnerability.

Pictures dating back to the 1920’s – Man with 1000’s of vintage cameras has a hobby, he can unfreeze time and develop older pictures into¬†negatives. It’s all about integrity.

Pass them down to your future generations Рremember those who came before us. The ones we inherited our addictions, maledictions. 

Nose catches a whiff- a sense of  a DNA code .


Frozen Snapshot! 

Talking to myself -creating characters in  a place of puffed up, cloudy mindfulness.  Not so sure that inherited  gene  falls under the category of serious afflictions.

Not crazy perhaps a mere case of  unharnessed creativity.  

What is so wrong with  riding  on an elated bull of mimicry?

Smokescreen Рless hazy. £100 bill to fix my technological , grave -sadistic error in clumsiness.

PC world.

Would you rather pay £1000 for a new mac laptop or £49 ?

 Ex-navy man, stop skirting around the gravy line, drop it on me like an anchor. In my world money is your pay packet. All I have is a sense of running out of time.

Rabbits late. Missed the date , bounced cheque couldn’t secure my ¬†delivery bundle, all inclusive with the hottest corporate communication and logistics¬† stork delivery enterprise.

Maybe next year I will miss the pill. 

Phones for you.

For me?

For you!

Warranty does not cover intoxicated phones. 

Why did you have to get  giddy and go bonkers at the mention of a few smartie infused cocktails,  for a party happening at 4pm ?

¬†This ¬†is festive stuffing ¬†prepped for nightmares. 1000’s of drones willing to commit mass suicide – I don’t think bee heaven has parties streamed with foam slides ¬†and glow in the dark stick tones.

Deaf Рno  jam. 

Talking in my ear. Three wise men chasing a star .

All I need is one competent man. 

Pass me a fan. English turns  into piggish. 

Yes, the laptop is exactly what I need. 

Writer? -one of the things I do.

Student debt.  This mute starts to laugh .

¬†Their bombastic moves to persuade¬†me leaves me with the taste of ¬†lead. I’m tempted to walk out of here as a¬†woman converted to the ¬†Amish.¬†

My specs are more concerned with software. 


Sound cloud. 


Don’t make me use my collateral.¬†

Figures ruminating around my mind – 400 – 500.


More fad songs. 

Inside, Hurricane Matthew remnants rattle Mount cranium.  Hurtling through the air Рa   cow  passes by me in flight, with a courteous: moo. 

This  is my despair.

The carefree  and serene  look is the only bargain  I am  looking for.

 Time is  zig zagging up behind me  in crocodile form. He has that tick-tocking  swag -his tail -swish swashes-ear drums deafened.

Momentary  paralysis.

Mentally confused. 

Mindstate?  Ready to light the cannon ball.

Scream: terrorist.

I am that bemused.

I will give you £60 worth of Morrisons grocery shopping if you stop selling to a seller Рtrying to service  a servicer 

Yadda yadda yadda. Green is  grasser. 

Too much fodder . Where’s the ¬†verbal shredder? ¬†

Noise pollution.

Recycle your position.

You can choose to not tick: employment occupation – Ass wiper.

Sit down. Take it all in. Funds ready to transfer. Card amped to stick it in and spread that green cum from within.

No protection.

Dirty laundering.

Hand wash only.

I’m thinking my accepted friend V has an addiction .

 I satisfied him last night. Friends do that caring thing.


¬†All week I have had him in and out. He doesn’t even remember most ¬†of his hits.

I spent most of Wednesday washing out bloody sheets, stained with a not so virginal hole.

Sinful statement – let’s sing a hymn for her cheery soul.

 Disease seems not far from our midst. 

 I need to contain it and stop passing it on and encouraging sharing.

Vee – I don’t want to lose you to a pair of sharp tools.

Poodle-haired lady bitch behind me – tit tittering.

Leave empty-handed. Priorities in order.

Not High street fashionable but then again I have always been drawn to disorder.

Time to leave consumer society hill. 

I’ve ¬†already taken ¬†a shot to the shoulder with over a hundred pound bill.¬†


Alcohol  arises from its slumber. Coughing,cunning and conniving.

Remember next Thursday.  All day Worskshops  on how to handle stress, delivered to four back to back classes of teens in year 10. 

Safety zone. A place I have to call my own.

Rant. communicate. 


Look at her face Рfull of delight. Illuminati Рunbelievers. 

The power of love and humanity Рcuts deep Рpenetrates  the  core of the bone.

Stress reliever.

Tearing open presents. Lighting candles. Rule of thumb. Forget the inside out rule. 

Hey, I’m a Mom – it’s cool. My ¬†Family praise me -a ¬†palm leaf sways- ¬†cool wind.

Time to break away from the frenetically paced  fever. 

No grief.

Not a cracker dares to show its face after seeing what I have just pulled off. 

 Top draw. classy.

Good night. sleep tight.

No time to study or do any work.

Always have to tidy up. 

Wash my makeup off. Comfortable pajamas . 

I hit my bed  ready to recharge. Refill my cup.

Madness, the Cure, the Pixies, Red Hot Chili Peppers.

I made it through another day:  no breakdowns, hospitalizations,no  close encounters with mind-bending lepers.

¬†Don’t mind if I treat myself to what I fancy?¬†

No need to answer.

I don’t listen to pessimists swimming in a sea of ever mutating, nuclear Cancer.¬†


Beliefs (7) Are you Good or evil?

Last post on this topic for a month. To day I’m exploring one of the oldest religions that sounds like rastafarianism but clearly to my ignorant mind is not . It is in fact, Zoroastrianism. ¬†This religion has it’s origin in Persia or Iran as we know it today.

The creator is wholly good. His name is Ahura Mazda – ‘lord of wisdom’. I’m ¬†not sure if he ever endorsed the car company Mazda. It is a possibility. Stranger things have happened in this life we live in.

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 He is beyond wise, he is everything that evil and chaos is not.  No snake is gonna get away lying to this God dude.

Being a God can be hard work so even a this dude needs a bit of help. He uses his seven creations- the divine spirits.

Spenta Mainyu is the ¬†Ahura’s favorite spirit because she is his agent and does his will.

If you have watched ‘Allo ¬†Allo’, Spenta is this character:


Like all good stories ,Ahura needs a nemesis. He has the ultimate nemesis his evil twin – Arihman.

He is beneath (pun) him. Ahura will never accept that his dark twin is his equal.


So the two are constantly locked in  a good old fashioned battle of Good versus Evil.

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Somehow Spenta- the secret agent is always in the middle of these two’s ¬†little spats. It is a mystery how or what the exact relationship is amongst the three.

Oh, another small fact РAhura  Mazda Рalso created humans whom he gave free will. I think that could have been one of the days he was having  a bit  of an off  day in his judgements. Just take a look around at our beautiful world or what is left of it.

Us , humans were granted with a massive responsibility to buck up , keep the world in a state of order.

Denounce all evil thoughts and behaviours known as druj -or the dark-side as many of us know it.

They did this by only speaking good things, doing good things, being pretty fucking good- not the best but just –

good enough– this goodness is called asha

Evil twin constantly tries to ¬†shake things up and ¬† rebels. He’s like

” Humans? Why so serious? C’mon lets have a party.”


” How do you know you are being good if you have never tried living in ¬†chaos? Maybe the true good lies in chaos” – this is a cunning tactic.


This is all hearsay of course. So don’t quote me on the exact words.


Mazda found or created this highly good dude called – Zoroaster., who went on to¬†hire a bunch of humans to do good shit. This was Mazda’s ultimate weapon against his twin.

‘Good will prevail’is the main belief of these optimistic folk.

Mazda, like many before and after him ,wanted to create a perfect world- a Utopia,I guess. I could argue that what one thinks is an idea of a perfect world is not necessarily what everyone else thinks is the perfect world.

I’m just putting that out there.

Just to be sure that Good had a better chance of defeating evil, Mazda had a couple more tricks up his sleeve.





He created an invisible spiritual world which contained a perfect being. This was meant to fool his evil twin.

He also came up with a pretty potent collection of words known as the ‘Ahunaver’ prayer which blasted his twin into back into the darkness. No light – nothing.

I’m tired after all this work. Finally Mazda created a ¬†tangible form to ¬†his spiritual world

He’s not gonna risk taking any more bullshit and so, the bull is created as the primal ¬†animal.

What about us humans. Never fear.

He may be weary but  he reveals his perfect spiritual  being and turns it into a real life  human being.

His idea of making us humans decide to side with bad or evil completely absolves him of any duty or responsibility. Crafty or what?

Did you think that his tricks worked on the greatest trickster of them all? His twin.


This is the bit where his  nemesis got really pissed off , he has licked his wounds and recovered and murders the bull and the human. He has a few gifts to bring to us.

All wrapped up with their own name tags.

One: Starvation

Two: Pain

Three: Disease

Four: Lust

Five: Death.

Quite a generous bloke is this nemesis of Mazda ( who may or may not be sponsored by Mazda -the car brand)


  • Zoroastrianism religion give us personal responsibility to ¬†do good and act morally

  • Human virtues: to practice daily include: Truthfulness, Loyalty,Tolerance, forgiveness,respect for ones Elders and keeping promises. All our choice

  • Human vices :not to practice are Anger,Arrogance,vengefulness,bad language ¬†and Greed

  • If you follow this religion you will be judged twice- yes, twice. Once when we die and the other is the last judgement.

  • People can redeem themselves and have the choice to act morally in the after life.

    • Only when good supersedes evil will a new ¬†saviour in the world be born –Saoshyant ¬†to revive the world.

So lets recap

Our creator is 100% good.

But,  people  can see  both evil and good

No evil can come from Good

So, evil needs to a completely separate creation to  the 100% good God

We have choice. We are encouraged to help our good creator challenge the bad and the evil in the world.

That is it until May 2016. Beliefs will continue to follow ¬†with ‘the rise of ancient and classical beliefs.’

See you then ¬†ūüôā


Follow Great Footsteps Unity

“As a bee sips nectar from many flowers and make a hive from honey,so that not one drop can claim, ‘I am from this flower or that’. All creatures, though one, do not realize they are one.” Upanishads (c1000 BC) #FollowGreatFootsteps


This week terrorism dominated the head lines in the news.  Still trying to further their warped and chaotic quest to divide people. This is a simple reminder that we all bleed, we all are born the same way, we eat ,sleep and all have to take a crap. We are more similar in spite of our differences. Remember this. It is Easter. Some may not celebrate it but it is a time for coming together.

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Have a great Easter. ūüôā

Thoughts about Happiness

I was once told a really interesting short ¬†folk-tale. It is perfect for today’s inspiration ¬†#FollowGreatFootsteps – although there is a kind of irony in this too.

Why this folk-tale ? Read on.

There is a folk tale about a snake. He was once asked if it could choose would it prefer to have legs.

The snake  tried to ponder this Рcompletely mystified by the question.

Finally it spoke:

“No” it said,

“I am what I am”

So yes. We are what we are. A situation is what it it is. lndeed, life is what it is.

THE MESSAGE – We don’t need to wish for something we don’t have


I posted  a personal post yesterday, expecting not much of a response and I have been blown away from all the comments from all of you. It further confirms how important and rewarding it is to be who you are . No masks are needed.

I hope you can see the irony in this ¬†this folk -story in connection with¬†¬†#FollowGreatFootsteps¬†in it’s full context ūüėÄ

Don’t be shy ūüėÄ Share what makes you tick and makes you think about your own place in this world ūüôā ¬†Connect .