Life is not a list to check off.
Have goals .
Don’t allow bitterness and the pursuit of wealth or the desire to look like a touched up picture of a model detract from the meaning and the true purpose of your life.
Easy to do. I do it too.
Figure out your purpose.
If you are not dead yet and have tried killing yourself many times.
You have a purpose.
Life is a gift and a curse and today and tomorrow may not ever be the same.
One moment, one word, one test result, one decision can shake your core and world from the inside out.
A Career- is doing something I love.
Money is a means to an end.
I can’t take all my material belongings with me to another world.
Stuff is just stuff.
Everything is replaceable except for a life and your health. Houses are demolished by hurricanes, weather freaks of nature every day.
Happiness is….. whatever the fuck you make it.
Make each day count. my Uncle taught me that saying.
If money is your God. Make sure you have a good deal with the money God or make sure you are that God.
Chances are you won’t permanently succeed over toppling that son of a biaatch.
Happiness -now that is a choice.
Choices are hard to make at times. We can convince ourselves we have no choice.
See this world through the eyes of a child, an elderly person or someone who is ill or someone who is grateful to have a bed to sleep on.
To the person who told me all homeless people are homeless because they are drug addicts or alcoholics.
I recall a time when said person was made homeless because they couldn’t pay their rent. No drug issues apart from an Eating disorder, diet pills and codeine and junk food and an illness and no support from anyone to help her.
I was 5 years old and I came home from school,I was told to sit on the step while I watched 2/3 men throwing our stuff out.
Literally throwing our stuff out the window.
The weekend before it was beautiful sunny day. I swam and we sat around the swimming pool. I don’t know how I knew or who told me that the landlord was going to throw us out.
I left said person to sunbathe and I decided to fight for our home.
I’ve always been a trouble maker. Some one who has the audacity to challenge people bigger than me.
I don’t shut up.
My Mother made sure I knew how to write my name and read before I was in kindergarten. She taught me how to read and write.
I wrote him a letter and posted it to him.
I asked him to not throw us out. Give us more time. We promise we will pay the rent.
I guess we can all be dickheads and worry about money and looks.
YUP- they are and will fade.
I’ve seen people I love become millionaires then become paupers over night and then millionaires again and die with nothing.
Not even their dignity. A papers funeral.
Money and looks are in a constant state of flux
Make sure you have character to back you up. HarDships make character – It’s easy to be bitter, its easy to be hard and emotionless.
Its easy to moan because I walked in the rain (again) in england.
I decided to put my face to the sky ,watch the birds fly and allow the rain to soak face and hair.
I smiled and smiled – in spite of not having cent to buy food or anything until next Thursday.
I’m not a fool.
I looked like one walking in the the rain with a grin on my embracing the rain and the cold.
Just like I did when I was a child.
Not comforming to looking downwards ,scowling -at the damn British weather.
Look for signs of life. Flowers are blooming again.
I have to have hope.
Hope is the only thing that keeps me going.
My mother refuses to tell me she loves me. We argue. She’s ill.
I tell her I love her no matter what.
LOVE BEAUTIFUL SOULS, FLAWED SOULS. Help those who can’t see past a dollar bill or the next selfie or the this day to get through life. YOU WILL NEVER LOOK OR BE AS GOOD AND BEAUTIFUL AS YOU ARE TODAY.
Don’t let the bastards whether family, friends or foe blame you for their problems and for making mistakes.
We are all human.
I don’t need a God to pray to for strength .I have love in my heart and I don’t give up on the people I love. I include my Dad in that.
These are my words
Okay I might as well get it out now.
20 guests have been invited to our wedding on the 22/06/2016. Invitations were sent out ages ago. Everyone confirmed and then Life happened.
Everyone on the list is not expendable. In our books they are chosen for specific reasons.
Five of the guests -a family – are chosen for being the ones that brought me and my King together.
I don’t know if they will make it (I’ve asked them to tell us on many occasions) because of their current situation. It is a matter of life and death. I understand life happens but this is our wedding and after many phone calls and chats; I don’t think I will be in a forgiving mood if they don’t make it.
Another couple is literally family. I’ve asked repeatedly over the months if they are sure that their health issues won’t affect them from coming to the wedding.
A lot of mixed signals and I’m dubious.
I’m quite sure that my two bridesmaids will be there considering the money invested in making them feel beautiful on the day. I have not gone all bridezilla on them . The only thing I made clear was I wanted their hair to be flowy and boho – up and down , plaits and not fussy with loads of crap in their hair.
I don’t want to fall out with people I have known for many years and people I will get to know in the years to come; over something that is not life threatening.
Hair – unless it involves losing it should not be a big fucking issue!
I’m starting to doubt my own hair do and thank fuck I am having another trial soon.
I am quite positive that four of the guests will be there – unless some travesty happens and of course that would not be be their faults.
The final guests I am kind of hoping won’t have any kind of issue on the day- I understand people get sick. I would always put my friends and families health before my own happiness.
One guest is our daughter. She is coming.
The thing is: Our wedding day is a once in a life time event.
There are many people we wanted to invite but we had to be really strict so we could have our wedding day, and make sure that every guest is catered to and has the very best we have to offer them ,to thank them for celebrating our day: with us.
I can’t control this. It is bigger than me and I’ve got to the point now where I have to sing ‘ Let it go’ because I’m a fucking first time bride – worrying about making sure everyone else is happy while I don’t get a chance to worry about my own hair, make up, health state etc..
I know I am having a bride to be rant. I didn’t want to post it because it is so…..
I hate being predictable but I want my guests to be predictable.
Isn’t that a bit of a catch 22 ?
So I’m letting go and will have an epic day in spite of what happens on the day.
I love everyone who is going to be there but there are also a lot of other people I love to pieces who I wanted to be there too.
My mantra up until the wedding is this little gem
” When we try all the time to be good, a spiritual beauty steals into our hearts,like the scent of wild flowers hidden among the grass” -UNKNOWN