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the derelict
A picture tells a thousand words
up close a real human face obscures,
Hides the truth of what is on the tip of its tongue.
Disapproval met by vibes in thrumb .
Pledged to one other
stand with an umbrella ready- for when in need of cover.
Sometimes dripping in regret is
the only way to salvage how we love and why we forget.
Bruised flesh,
tempers threaded with dynamite.
Will of one -stubborn as a carnal idol fight.
Pleasure seeking
sweet words passed along fingertips
pattern swirls over your lover’s body – a pulse – blood rush, skin on skin
not a touch that is fleeting.
Prolong the ecstasy. Uncode the quest in me.
Moths flutter to the nearst light of anxiety.
Love me – hate me – accept I am my gracioust deed.
Trust , how much I am in need.
Drive love away with a belligerent fiaxtion of desire.
arousal and connection fused to spark up the dopamine wire.
Explosions of division. Sweet kisses, bites to the neck -won’t go unhidden.
Pain is pleasure -without one the other can’t exsist,
it’s forbidden.
One lover looks to the West
the other lover to the East.
dichtomy driven by a modern day beast.
Will we grow?
Will I become the mother who knows how to sew?
Sounds elementary, I know.
Cook from scratch.
Laugh at my attempts to create another botched up cookie batch?
sentiment is arousing.
stimulants keep the thought from dousing.
I never want to hurt you yet I hurt me and have no idea how to grasp a different intellect.
Too many have raided and pillaged me. Today I stand, remembered by one otherwise a forgotten derelict.
The other side of Fear.
Top of the morning to you all!
WOW!
It feels good to be able to type away with no worrying about any trains or buses or rides to catch.
This weekend I get to catch up on reading your blogs -YAY!
I have missed you all so much. I can’t wait to throw myself into my Masters.
I always feel I come across so smug when I say it or type that word but I have worked my ass off to get to this point.
Proper catch up with as many of you as possible this weekend.
For those who know -I DID IT!
I am now able to officially and skillfully co -facilitate WRAP groups( wellness recovery action plan program) to help people who have mental and physical issues or have had at one point,to manage their lives- holistically.
It’s not a therapeutic based program. It’s truly a chance to revolutionize the way we deal with our health in the current Diagnostic,clinical, prescriptive , doctor is always right model we use.
erm.. I nearly didn’t do this program because I felt I wasn’t in a good place mentally or physically, however by going back to my own WRAP plan ,
I remembered a few of my own wellness tools ( things that keep me well) . To share a few:
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educating myself
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putting myself out of my comfort zone ( public speaking alert/thinking on my feet/making myself vulnerable to empower others)
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volunteering my time to skill up and be a person who is an active part of my community and who is wanting to share my knowledge/experiences and pass information along with others.
So, pushing myself by doing the WRAP facilitating mental health recovery program, using the key concepts and ethics to show that people who experience mental health( good and bad), with support and without judgement, can find new ways of coping with life and their issues that empower and give them back the responsibility for their own mental/physical health.
If that is what they want.
It is possible. I’ve seen it work over and over again. I work it.
It was heavy going. I was thinking on my feet a lot, not much time to prepare things ,put on the spot, practicing presenting skills, facilitating skills, listening skills. There is so much I could put down.
I lost a lot of my self-confidence -3 months ago. On a positive note,by pushing myself and challenging myself to do this program at the next level, it has helped me find my inner confidence again, I’ve started to believe in myself again, I remember how far I have come. The future has so much in store for me because I choose it to be that way.
I want this to be a really positive post. I have these lyrics in my head: ‘don’t be negative (negative) just be positive (positive)’
ha ha! How am I doing?
Tbh. I am relieved the training is over. I can now concentrate on my next goal – my MA in creative writing. EEEK!
Then, I can start using extra hours in my Life to help form a WRAP community in Calderdale, U.K. ( which is where I currently live).
This is the wonderful group of individuals I had the opportunity to work with. I have had their permission to put this pic up on my blog.
Here is me with a bunch daisies I found in the garden .
I am going to end it on a high.
I’m going to be a bit selfish.
Yesterday, we (including the WRAP training facilitators who run the group) each had a turn to write down our thoughts about each person we have worked with on the five-day training course, using strength-based feedback.
It’s not as cheesy as it sounds because I know I am my own worst critic and I know I am not alone in that.
This morning, I have read the comments people wrote on my name tent. I’ve decided to reinforce these comments in my mind, by typing them into this post.
Yes, yes I am bigging myself up – no one else is going to do it. My husband says I need to blow my own trumpet. In his Yorkshire accent, he goes :
” Ya bloody earnt it.” ha ha!
Here they are:
‘Tasha, you have a passion for growing and will be great helping others’
‘vulnerable but strong,empathetic,powerful,enthuisiatic,’
‘Tasha, you are an absolute star! Your openness and insight are inspiring. I feel priviliged to know you.x’
‘You are an inspiration to us all- your story is one of Strength and Hope. It has been a real pleasure working with you this week. Thank you x’
‘Tasha, your courage and Strength has been a shining light in this group.I have seen you listen, learn and grow.’
‘Tasha, you have shown strength and individuality. Keep on going’
‘Great to meet you, warm and friendly person’
‘Well done Tasha, for having the courage and Strength to complete the training course. You will be an asset to any facilliator team. Share yourself and your journey so far.’
‘You are a genuine individual. Never change x’
‘Natasha, I know you have had it hard.You are one strong, beautiful lady. Please look after yourself.x’
‘Tasha, your capacity to grow and learn means you are definitely going too be a great facilliator. Your empathy stands out like a light’
‘Tasha, what a journey you have been on and I only know snippets. It’s clear to me you are a strong woman. I love your vibrancy and individuality.I also thought we made an awesome team x’
”Natasha, Don’t change who you are! Don’t doubt yourself ever again. You’ve shown kindess,compassion and consideration to everyone this week.I would love to stay in touch and see you again in the future.Girl done Good!. x
HAVE A FAB WEEKEND!
LOVE DAISY XOXO
A Dose of Sunshine.
The sun may have called it a day 😀 but as promised, I have done it! Caught up with all you ,bloody brilliant bloggers who have touched soil with the Willows.
Finally, I have had the attention span and energy to go through all of your lovely blogs. You are all so bloody unique. I LOVE IT!
This usually takes me a full day and night to do but it is totally worth it. You all are.
I am blown away by the diversity of the people and content I connect with on WordPress. I am buzzing from checking out your Blogs. I have a massive smile on my face. The sun is still shining for me and my heart is brimming over with sunny Delight.
WOW! I’m speechless. Ha ha!
Thank you for taking a chance on this flower. Me!
I know I have an epic award to receive but I have really wanted to meet everyone who has come into the Willows over the past two weeks.
SHOUT TIME – whoop! whoop!
I do sincerely check out all your blogs and not only do I give you a shout out to say THANK YOU! but I pick what I call -MY STAR SCENTED POST PICK to lead other Bloggers to check out your Blogs.
Please check out these Blogs.
Be comfortable to feel how you want to feel!
Be yourself!
Be!
Live!
Laugh!
Cry!
Be human!
Breathe in the Good shit! OXYGEN!
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