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A poem from a strange daughter

If  foresight revealed you would  always  remain  my biggest fan

then in retrospect, I’m certain you wished that you had made a better escape plan.

I type these words weary & mothered out.

Wondering how I can still love a child who dismisses me without having to shout.

I do.

Mostly love

Mostly nag & figure motherhood out.

Is it worth it?

Life is fleeting.

these words would sound better if interpreted by a Geisha learning how to interpret the I Ching.

Silver linings

strive to find a purpose.

Whatever doesn’t kill you makes you may make you stronger

It also makes one weary and often a bit teary.

 I carry on the tradition

light  your cake as a reminder

that without you there would be no fire lit in my belly savouring the meaning of meaning.

Life is a celebration, a trial and cursed blessing.

I have no words to convey how much I have sinned.

To quote a wise lady I’ll be happy if I can be a quarter the lady my mother is when…

she draws the curtains on her solo performance of a life lived.

life would have been sung by the haunting blues & myriad cherubs singing ‘Elysium exists’ hymn after hymn.

Happy birthday –  psalm 58 to the creator of  hope & faith

a celebration to your mortality.

Insightful are those who keep a track of the moments lived in the presence

& know how to make all of it count.

Making Connections -Mental Health charities

I finally got to have a meeting with the co-founder of a charity that I am hoping to do more work with. I arrived early and I bumped into a lady I’m currently in contact with via another awesome charity. She took the time to tell me that her and another lady I have been working with, think I am ‘a true leader, I’m inspiring, articulate, I have great empathy and great presence.’

She is hooking me up with an advanced creative writing specialist in our locality to co-produce some work. I’m so excited!

I’m making connections and it feels so empowering to be in this position. I got across a few ideas I had for what I feel is needed in my locality. I have hit another milestone on my journey and I am getting to do some incredible work  Mental health charities. It doesn’t stop. There is a  close- to- my -heart group I and yet another wonderful person are working together with, to resurrect this successful and much needed support group back in my area.

I will say that it is in regards to mental health issues and being a mother and not living with their child/ren for a multiple and variety of reasons. All the shit I go through is not in vain.  I would not be in a position to offer my time to people who may benefit from it if it weren’t for my life story and shit.  My own work in the writing field is being looked at with integrity. I couldn’t ask for more. 

Last week I went to parents evening with my other half. My daughter is currently doing maths and literacy at the 5/6-year-old level. My daughter turned 4 yrs old this October. Apparently, she is a social butterfly just like her great Nan and Great Grandma. I’m the total opposite- a recluse. I choose who gets to use my energy. Every day I am learning which people I won’t be likely to give much energy to any longer and which people I will. I’m learning to be kind to myself. 

I’m getting to work creatively with people with the same kind of vision as myself. I’m am blessed and I am going to pat myself on the back. Nothing ventured, nothing gained right? 

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I mostly write with a rather intensity that people may not always appreciate. I want people to see that I do have a balanced view and every so-called negative thing that has happened in my life is being used for a greater purpose. One that will affect me and hopefully others in a more creative and inspiring way.  On that note-  have an epic. awesome and grand week.   I know I say/write  it a lot- but ‘ always, always look for the silver lining….’ 

Do you have a song that  makes you happy? Or even more than one?