My thoughts on escaping the past

Bahtuhkid · my thoughts about the past When I think I’ve escaped the past I know my Ma doesn’t drink alcohol and she Sort of kicked me out without kicking my ass. My daughter cried Tatiana didn’t meow I came back to the place where I thought I would relapse I went to buy catContinue reading “My thoughts on escaping the past”

My confessions on a secret

Shhhhh… Can you keep a secret? ‘If I told you I care, I still do. A person can only be told ‘to go away’ so many times before they must act on a person’s wishes. It is called respect. It doesn’t mean that person doesn’t care or has changed their mind. It does mean thatContinue reading “My confessions on a secret”

The living ain’t easy

It hasn’t taken away everything there is still me inside. Don’t forget I rise, fall, stumble, then I suppose because I’m here, I rise. See even grey lizards can be Newborn from cinders. My number is definitely not over Mother’s nature to beta block a seizure on Kronos’s clock. merely an earthling in my mortalContinue reading “The living ain’t easy”

Thoughts about Social services & Justice

*First posted 2015 Content: How I got my daughter back-  and issues of control/being out of control This morning I woke up with a feeling of loss and  a heavy anchor weighing me down. I should have been buzzing. I was three hours away from meeting up with a girl who works with a mentalContinue reading “Thoughts about Social services & Justice”

Fusion Digital Infiniti -Ubiquitous

I’d like to thank my soul sister for dropping this into my inbox this stunning spiritual array of light and love music mix today. Mondaine or Fusion Digital  Infiniti hails from Salt Lake City, Utah and is a dedicated mother and music mixer producer with talent and heart big as the ocean. If you loveContinue reading “Fusion Digital Infiniti -Ubiquitous”

Sheep on suicide

Where is my mind? The weed who has every right to declaim — life’s not fair. I’m back , I’m here . And a round of applause for me. I’m reclaiming my life! Life is like tax credits. We have to keep on reclaiming it to make sure we get it. For one reason only:Continue reading “Sheep on suicide”

WRAP is it for you?

I have been quiet on the WRAP  front – wellness recovery action plan. Only for the reason, I knew this testimonial video would be available for YOU and others who want to take their life in their hands and have a plan for if it all goes down the toilet. <p><a href=”https://vimeo.com/153148446″>WRAP – Experiences, BenefitsContinue reading “WRAP is it for you?”

The order of the black Dog

My family. Here we all are, sitting around the circular dining room table- flecked with bits of gold. Ma sits under a hanging portrait of this Christmas just gone. Three weeks ago. We are all smiling in it including Poppy. Poppy sits playing with her Annabelle doll, on my husband’s lap. Sat opposite from Ma,Continue reading “The order of the black Dog”

Death rattle

* This a poem that I wrote whilst waiting and comforting my mom and my gran before she passed over in March 2018, from vascular Dementia and Alzheimers. I wrote it while waiting for her to let go of Life. It’s a Morbid (and possibly strange) thing to do when someone you love is dyingContinue reading “Death rattle”