I wanna write something new
I wanna write a poem that’ll make me forget
Just like the alcohol use to
I wanna write a poem that’ll make me regret
Just like all the one-night stands did
I wanna write a poem that’ll make you feel dirty
The kind that makes you get dressed, leave immediately than go get tested
I wanna write the kind of poem that is as hard to listen to as it is to recite
I wanna write a poem that’ll leave my skin crawling and my ears bleeding
I want this poem to bleed as much as I did
Let these blue lines be my veins, the bleached paper be my skin
This poem doesn’t have much left because my heart is paper thin
Let the ink run deep, leave this page looking like a murder scene
I wanna write a poem like murder she wrote
Right before she broke her knife off into my back
I wanna write a poem like a sneak attack
The kind that catches you by surprise in the middle of the night
Like a nightmare with no way out
I wanna write a poem to allow my darkness a way to scream and shout
It’s not meant to be loud, it just is
This poem doesn’t care if you listen
This poem will slit the wrists to any awkward silences out there
Beware of the dog its bark is far less than it’s bite
I wanna write a poem as long this line of crushed up valium
Let this poem leave me just as high and as numb
I wanna write a rain dance than bring forth the dark clouds
Drown out this piece of paper and wash away the doubts
I wanna write a poem like a one-way road
Then bulldoze everything in its path
I wanna write a poem like a cold body in a warm bath
Then give it 13 reasons why it never should’ve been alive
I want this poem to be a fit of my desolate rage
That still burns even after I exit this stage.
I'm looking to gauge interest from creative people who live/ work or spend time being creative in U.K., Yorkshire and globally) to be a part of a project called 'The Creativists Hour'
Up until now I've focused on mini music reviews and interviewing Musicians - the majority of the talent I've reached out and who've reciprocated are not from the U.K.
I focused on gaining confidence by writing (unusual) music reviews and "hounding'" people to do a Feature for my blog.
I knew this was a huge risk to my blog and readers because I was trying something new. I was willing to lose certain readers or win them over.
My angle on doing these reviews and Features included finding artists who aren't afraid about talking about mental health - their or other peoples or even sharing personal experiences- the good, the bad. -the ugly?
My experience writing features showed more readership engagement with people open to talking about themselves and their mental health issues without feeling it would compromise their aspirations/career.
The next part of this project is to extend my (unusual) reviews, research/interview people from the entertainment and arts industry
writers
poets
songwriters
artists
performers
singers
musicians
Scriptwriters for radio/film or stage
animation artists and organisations who support local talent in Halifax and the U.K. & globally)
The AIMS of this project
Share authentic and relatable stories and personal narratives to readers to inspire them, to see that being creative is not something that has to be measured by success /money/experience or fans.
Focus on the community closer to my current home in Yorkshire and on the U.K. creative scene
Keep promoting artists and creative people from across the globe.
How,Why and What led them to have chosen their creative outlets, hobbies or careers.
understanding how using their creative outlets benefited/Improved their life in a holistic sense: Mental health, physical health, social lifestyle, values, perspectives, challenges, moments of achievement
How have their creative outlets led to negative experiences and how they overcome them/ intend to. The Outcome for asking people to share this is: Inspire people & be real.
What creativity means to an individual
How (if at all) has their community helped or hindered their creative passions.
How can they encourage or signpost other local community members to feel inspired/ confident to get involved with their community and creative arts scene to express themselves? I believe even the most "successful & talented people have moments of doubt.
Interview individuals/groups/organisations on social media/emails/Skype/face to face recorded interviews /meetings/gigs etc.. and then use my blog as a medium to merge our agendas.
I love music and I love writing and I love people with a story to tell. This gives interested participants/people both a platform and voice to promote their talent and own agenda. It's my blog and my risk. It might be a success or need tweaking. I enjoy changing things up. Writing out of my comfort zone. My agenda is to use this project as a platform to pass on other peoples experiences in the Arts/entertainment industry to the reader by being real and be comfortable talking about mental health -good and bad. Giving people resources, ideas, self-confidence, inspiration and hope that they can also be creative & challenge the definition of creativity. Use my blog as a data storing place where I can record my research/findings/photos/transcripts of interviews Spread the word on what is creative talent/opportunities there are in, West Yorkshire , the U.K. and around the globe. Email if you want to take part
