Conscious heart
I just wanna be free from this heartache.
I don’t hardly know you and you bewitched me, yeah you bewitched me alright.
I know I can go acting all crazy – I have nothing but my insight.
Bliss bliss – just wanna feel this bliss.
I got scared I felt like I got bypassed – missed -dissed.
I covered my true emotions from you cos I was afraid you were gonna reject me .
See, I didn’t know…..
I didn’t know.
I don’t hardly know you and you bewitched me – yeah, you bewitched me alright.
Didn’t mean to cause no fright .
Connections were made when I felt your beat – it moved my feet.
You got me dancing – all I wanna do – all I wanna do –
is dance – feel these beats – merge , combine.
sublime – is that truly a crime?
I don’t hardly know you and you bewitched me – you bewitched me,alright.
I just wanna be free of this heartache.
Checked every lotion I got to remedy this potion.
Stuck in reverse.
My heart is not well versed.
All I wanna do is reach out – yeah, reach out.
I keep getting rejected.
Emotions are not my rationale.
I consume triple portions –
I am about to implode.
All I wanna do is reach out – yeah reach out to you.
I just wanna be free,
wanna be free,
free to dance and merge our beats.
Sensations to make me feel, something resembling a full pie chart -a work almost incomplete.
I know I can go acting all crazy. I have nothing but my insight.
This is my soul bared- naked as the day you undressed me.
I came to you.
Yeah, I came to you; bare, vulnerable.
I just wanted you to know – I wanted you to know .
I ……
I….
My heart can’t be reasoned with. I’m breathing.
It is real.
Not cognitive dissonance.
Laid myself naked and bare.
Rejected.
Rejected.
I just wanna be free from this heartache…
Posted on May 16, 2022, in WRITE TO RECOVER and tagged Creativity, Emotions, humanity, Life, Love, Relationships, Stream of consciousness. Bookmark the permalink. 18 Comments.
This is truly beautifully written x
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Seems the heart gained It’s consciousness and started it’s real play
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Yes, Akhila. It is that moment when I say ‘Im not going to push away the emotions- no matter how painful- embrace all emotions’
It hurt. I find once I start accepting all emotions and sitting with them- I feel . I can also think about what other emotions felt like. How it is possible that in time -an hour/ a week/ a month / a year – eventually -I will feel something else.
I’ve always run away from my feelings. Tried to cloud them with something else. I don’t want to do that anymore.
For me, there is a renewed respect and deeper level of understanding t the saying:
‘How can you truly embrace the emotion happiness if you have never felt or embraced true sadness’ – That is my version of the quote
Take care.
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true…emotions change their forms with our embrace.. it is the magic played by emotions.. when we try to be away from them, it hurts deeper and deeper. but as you said, if we accept it as such, it is truly a different feeling, the peek of understanding
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Indeed!
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Lovely, mournful, achy, sincere, honest, rhythmic, I dance with you, I dance with you…
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T Y so much. Yay! I love to dance. The sun can be our disco ball!
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“Laid myself naked and bare” there you have begun your journey to be free from the heartache!
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Thank you. 😙😙😙😙
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You’re welcome! 🙂
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I love the beat of your words in this post. 🙂
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Cheers Brenda . Something a bit different. Xx I felt like I had been skinned after writing this 😀😨
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I did find it different from your other posts but I loved it. Even though I stick to poetry, I’ve sometimes felt completely bare after putting words to paper as well. I still haven’t gotten use to the feeling. I probably never will. 🙂
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I had to watch stand-up comedy to raise my spirits 😀 . It worked. 🙂
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crazy is the same song same results. a promise a lie. fight negativity within tho
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Feel the pain. Embrace it . Don’t fight it. Worth a shot 😀
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no i just abandoned her
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Ws it worth it?
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