Sad but true


Just let go – what have you got to lose?
eyes veer from every inch of the walls surrounding her, desperately imploring, pleading for an answer.
Gain, gain – You have everything to gain.
Let yourself be loved, adored; laugh.
Gain some weight. Give Life a heartbeat that doesn’t stutter out cacophonously.

Passing by incongruent signs.
Lose what exactly?
That last chance to see that person or experience that moment again.

Move on. Time escapes no one.
Yes, move on but isn’t that like quitting?
You are too stubborn. You will be the tower that gets struck by lightning. catches fire and burns to the ground.

You would have been at your highest yet still trying to glimmer amongst stars you imagine are on top of the true hierarchy.

‘It wasn’t a solid foundation, to begin with,’ she says. This time, I get to start again,’ she says.
We all deserve a second chance -even a third – not all of us are so pleasantly aligned with the heavens to be given such a gift – another chance to explore.

Fantasies played out over and over in her mind.
Could that be the allure?
She is aware her thinking is not based in reality but in a place where everything works out just fine.
Let go, that part of your mind. That dream. Free up space for new ideas, true goals to achieve and be who you are meant to be.
Sometimes, that is why she chooses to escape. She can’t handle feeling the tug. Sitting, looking at lines on the palms of her hands Feeling trapped.
To make contact -one last time. her heart sighs….
Sounds like a recording from the denial addiction hotline.

One last time will never be enough.
It isn’t physical. It’s emotional. It’s deep – it’s raw. It’s irrational. Bordering on obsessiveness.
If she could frolic with ignorance – it would make this sentence- seem less like walking the green mile.
Fighting emotions with reason – battery, assault, bruised, cutting remarks.
Too much time has passed. She has experienced the same mistakes all too often.

She can’t run to her nearest anchor be it – drugs, alcohol, eating, not eating,
Her will has been made. She signed on the dotted line. Willingly.
She has chosen Life .

To feel is a double-edged sword. No matter how many times you practise and try to form it into a skill ,a talent even.
The blunt edge is the one that gets sharper.

Equality is a simple equation.
Look at Algebra!
when you know the rules it all becomes a little simpler to understand.
Life is not one and one makes two.
It is all an illusion. We are everywhere, everyone, every feeling, every planet, every language, every song.
Stop counting.
When any species is under attack it will either choose immortality or fight and evolve- transcend – would you believe she learnt that from a sci-fi film?
Life is short. bittersweet. Is that why she won’t let go?

She wants to make sure that whatever happens to someone she has ever had the privilege of meeting to make amends and not feel grief.
Selfish, yes – at least she will be at peace.

About Daisy Willows

'Words are my everything' - Jon Wayne . A writer of poetry, stories, stage scripts, fiction, border line poetry & freestyle works, Music reviews, Guest Features/interview & shout outs. She is also passionate about raising anti-stigma & awareness for Mental Health. A trained co-facilitator in Wellness Recovery Action plan by Mary Ellen Copeland Natasha goes by many moniker names-Daisy Willows, bahtuhkid, GOAT2Bdazee. She has had a colourful life. Travelled. Natasha co-owns a second-hand clothing & accessories business -La Bella Bijoux Ltd Natasha was born in South Africa & is a French national. She currently resides in the UK Natasha Bodley holds a postgraduate in the Humanities. A BA in Myth in the Greek and Roman worlds & Advanced creative writing. She also holds a Foundation degree in Acting performance. She is currently working on her first novel (semi-autobiographical creative non-fiction). She has published one short story on Amazon called 'Number one' Connect with Natasha Collaborate with Natasha & feel free to Communicate her too. Light, Peace & Love!

Posted on May 16, 2022, in STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS COLLECTION and tagged , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 22 Comments.

  1. 👌👌👌✒️🌹

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  2. This is so well written and I can relate so much. Loved reading 🙂

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  3. Wow! That was a wow expression read.

    Wish and wonder life would have been so easy to balance out things. It is way beyond complicated.!

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  4. I think it’s only in algebra that equality is a simple equation. In human life, equality sucks.

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  5. thinking in the cold of the morning. cold shoulder lamb to my lion crying and shut off and away at her control gives me the answer the law of moses and the lord count one to ten.

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  6. summerstartstoshine

    I love this Daisy. Every sentence resonates with me on some level. It’s beautifully written and I get lost in your evocative words. Good job hun Xxx


    • Thank’s Summer. I wasn’t going publish it. I thought it was just blah – downer material lol. Then I changed my mind and I had a feeling you would get me 😀 – comforting but I don’t want you to go through this torture xxxx hugs and love all the way from the North xxxx

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      • summerstartstoshine

        My emotional IQ is fucked basically 😝 Sometimes I feel guilty when I write darker posts, but when you feel emotions as strongly as we do, you can’t help but explore it all, good and bad. I thoroughly enjoyed reading it, as ever ❤ 👍 😘 🙋

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      • Ha ha! It’s a good job I know you and your voice. I have to laugh or ….. I also feel a bit guilty. I’m like ‘ aw why you wallowing?’ but then again you are right. Life is not always good but it is what you do with the shit times that counts. I am a constant work in progress and you are a brave soul. Take care hun. Catch up with you – somewhere over the other side of some social media rainbow xxxxxxx

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