Reading back on words I’ve written

I mapped out a destiny of self hatred

Gulping down chunks of disbelief

I can’t loathe every part of the inner beast.

Choking on the words of the past.

No happiness to impart

No happiness to instil in my heart.

Struck by the shadows of villains in the dark.

Corrupted by an inner iago

Chanting in tongues.

I don’t understand this malarky

Find a place to comfort or hide



Another lesson not learned.

40 winks of birthdays celebrated

Not one has counted in culminating in a positive celebration.

The inferno

The reckless use of words.

Contort my body

into a waking slumber of chronic illness

I’ve lost the gumption to confront my demons .


A dud.

A  dummy soul sold out to my own adversity.

About Daisy Willows

'Words are my everything' - Jon Wayne . A writer of poetry, stories, stage scripts, fiction, border line poetry & freestyle works, Music reviews, Guest Features/interview & shout outs. She is also passionate about raising anti-stigma & awareness for Mental Health. A trained co-facilitator in Wellness Recovery Action plan by Mary Ellen Copeland Natasha goes by many moniker names-Daisy Willows, bahtuhkid, GOAT2Bdazee. She has had a colourful life. Travelled. Natasha co-owns a second-hand clothing & accessories business -La Bella Bijoux Ltd Natasha was born in South Africa & is a French national. She currently resides in the UK Natasha Bodley holds a postgraduate in the Humanities. A BA in Myth in the Greek and Roman worlds & Advanced creative writing. She also holds a Foundation degree in Acting performance. She is currently working on her first novel (semi-autobiographical creative non-fiction). She has published one short story on Amazon called 'Number one' Connect with Natasha Collaborate with Natasha & feel free to Communicate her too. Light, Peace & Love!

Posted on Apr 16, 2022, in POETRY and tagged , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 7 Comments.

  1. “I mapped out a destiny of self-hatred” 💔💖

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    • Hi Em, it’s long time. Thanks for reading my words. How are you ?

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      • You’re welcome. I enjoy them. I’m doing okay, I suppose. Ups here, downs there. I heard or read something once – keeping on keeping on – seems about right 😌

        And you? How are you finding this weird word these days?


        • Thank you , so much! Yes it is true what you say : life is full of ups & downs.
          Chamberlain ( former British prime minister) said : if at 1st you don’t succeed, try , try , try & try again.
          That kind of attitude requires much fortitude lol 😅. No sweat .

          How am I finding the world? Ha ha!

          Well… different year , same thoughts & trying to season those thoughts according to my age.. Ha ha! Xx big hugs . I’m not on here a lot because I’m in the process of printing my works.

          Love your new about page!

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