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Creativist FEATURE: Fear me, Dear me

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I usually know nothing about the people I ask to feature. Here is the usual process of listening to music to getting a feature.

I’m listening to music and goawwing about my day.

A song stops me from whatever I’m I’m doing.

Hit repeat again. And again. Then before looking into the artist’s bio. Before thinking about how I’m going to put źßacross the themes I’d like to touch upon.

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Mental health and how creativity by having a creative outlet to express ourselves can lead to better mental health.

Write to recover is my creative outlet

My approach is instinctive. Before I ask myself how I’m going to achieve this in a feature interview, I realise I’ve hit send asking for a feature.

When people get back to me and say yes.It sends my thoughts spiralling down a tunnel picking up random and conflicting emotions

My brain:

Yay, someone thinks I can write about them.

Someone thinks I can write about them in a structured way.

Someone will probably think I do this all the time.

(A barrage of emotions).

What do I know about interviewing and communicating?

I know nothing about this person/band.

(Frantic typing on my laptop).

I obsessively research, listen to their music, doubt myself.

Berate myself for doubting myself.

SELF TALK: I love doing this. This is another experience to add to my goal of writing -connecting with people. A chance to be creative. A chance to express myself.

A chance to embrace my own passion for writing. A chance to challenge my writing style and that means communicating with other people not just in the writing form but “live” speaking.

I have to come out of my writing bubble world so I can go back to the fun part of writing and researching.

I struggle a lot with my mental health. The one way that helps me stay on a good path with my mental health is writing and being creative. feel self-worth and self-validation that comes from inside, feeling like I have expressed myself in a way that feels genuine. writing for me keeps me away from my triggers for relapsing with my mental health.

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I immediately wanted to run away from an outlet that I get so much positiveness from doing.

it is quite bizarre that my instinct to run away and not do the interview stems from my own thoughts about if I can be creative.

It puts pressure on me to follow through with what I say I want to do and then I am given the chance to do something I am passionate about not a professional music journalist. I am afraid to fail.

I feel like backing out of doing most features if I did that then I would be a hypocrite because the whole point of doing these features is to demonstrate to myself and others that feeling the fear and feeling inadequate prevents me from being happy. It is a challenge to my own self-perception and my belief that creativity does improve mental health.

The way I prove it is by doing it. This is my style and I express myself as the person I am because I want to be well. I want to enjoy discovering new people, having new experiences, learning and feeling a part of something that means something to me.

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Can’t Promise her a title

Lazily, a  tigeress snores into her paws . If only retiring was as simple to rule her inner world.

Curled up in warmth after a stroll  into the big wide world,then  settle for a quinquennium pause.

Her heart beats.

Nationalists- not even  patriots  are exempt.

All want to play in their own chord, tighten the strings ,she keeps  it together, to satisfy their crucified minds.

In a state of constant – motionless movement.

If not an act of physicality -drill cumbersomely inside her cranium and you will see chemicals and synapses – making up fresh bricks and mortar, to fit in with the latest homemade yeast infused hootchie.

Glance away now, for fear of pitying an evocative attempt to get a rise from it.

Secret plots to charge this queen with treason.

Where will she live?

Her throne burnt to the ground to make way for a newly elected dopamine and serotonin scrupulous , democratic union.

Flags of self-belief – burned infringed – protecting her staked land  was all this monarch tried to take into hand.

Defamation – character assassination.

Cloaked – in darkness- rat scuttles past – no pause – it already knows this violated prisoner is barren.

Scars and welts – a confession is sought after by the cardinal living east of the castle manor.

Employed only to instill courage when the  most powerful empire seized a chance to escape into heritic souls howling in the wind.

Faith and Hope – not draft an erratic, purple, incensed  dogmatic pope .

Dire retribution -execute the one who claims  this state is her very birthright.

Clubbed to her knees –  she will crawl  not humbly- you shall hear her plea.

She  wants to make them a better nation.

It’s her biggest exclamation.

Out plotted by her very own court –  bribed by cheap whores-given away by the roughness of their hands, dressed up as expert courtesans,  who clearly have seen at least one day of sun.

Intoxicated by some amorphous potion.

Formalyhde doused  in cleaveaged lace dresses – it was  not her initial notion.

A scented air  of burning flesh

A greek tragedy indeed.

Scorned by her very  owns subjects . She may be longitiduely  dimintitive  but she refuses to be bullied into showing them that wanted emotion.

Defeatist attitude does not a fit queen make.

Words in  a precise order do not  prize a piece of   art,

so clearly a fake.

Forgiveness is her only weapon. She won’t see her country  be overrun by zealous creachers.

It would appear her subjects wish to prove that she is illiterate.

Tortured, holding her breath under water to procure a confession – let her reiterate.

The crown is made to fit one head – It is symbolic and vaporizes with her when she  exhales all energy and   is varnished as  dead.

Look how you’ve turned on one another – in the pursuit of power. It is  a notorious illusion.

To master control over all subjects requires more than an iron-clad fist and an outraged dalliance to declare outright confusion.

Compassion,

nurture,

recognition and honor are what she   offers,

accept these as the wealthiest of gifts.

Only a fool would scream,

‘Off with her head‘ -a face full of sour lemons and a lust to frazzle the last tether.

The Noblest  of causes – so much bloodshed – look into her bloody, vein threaded eyes.

She hasn’t slept for weeks in her fight, to appease  all those in famine, hungry and underfed.

She  needs no  steering Regent to aid her  in her duty.

All she demands is loyalty and valor.

With you all at her side ready to conquer life’s copious battles,

we shall not go down .

your  hearts will not know the true grief  inflicted made up of another community of arrows.

we shall not waiver.

Trust in your queen to walk as a stout  cripple ,duty bound to protect and hold it all together.

Bank of Sound Feature : Marc OFX

Finally, I managed to get a few words from, Mark OFX.  YAY!

 

What inspired you to do your latest EP -FREEDOM?

The freedom EP was inspired by all the floppy disks I used to record in my computer . They were old material I used with my mate Hootch Music

They were old samples from CD and vinyl

I’ve noticed your latest EP FREEDOM is crossing into the footwork era movement.

Yes I love to

How many beats per min have you used for this EP?

The bpm of footwork is 160 or 80

Who has inspired you to venture into this movement and energetic style?

A DJ friend introduced me to this style of music .Ilove this mix of hip-hop jungle and techno.

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How, Why and What led you to have chosen your creative career?

I think I don’t have choose music, music came to me.

Like a evidence (more apparent) 

Ok. Were. you born with a musical soul and passion to create sound?

No it came at 14/15 years old.

Ok, what changed in your life to get you involved in making music?

I discovered Jimi Hendrix and it was like… this is what I want to do all my life

Yeah, he is cool. Very cool! Haha! 

Did you have the vision  to make a certain sound expressing yourself as Marc OFX-?

I first tried rock because of Hendrix. But I was more touched by black music. At the beginning, I used 4 tracks tape recorder and after a sampler. The idea was to create everything myself. I use Reason essentially, a lot of samples and some hardware synth sometimes

Interesting. Were you influenced by Chicago house scene to mixtapes?

 Where do you find your inspiration for sounds? what /how do you work in the studio 

I was not so influenced by house but more by hip hop and later jungle drum and bass

I searched for all classic samples in funk to rap

I made a soundcloud page for classic samples to download freely

With my personal sound bank

Starving Loop Machine

Classic Samples and Loops in WAV and Free Download. Give Food to your sampler!

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WOW! You created all this?

Not my own samples. 

Classic old school samples

 

what else do you love to do apart from music?

I love my wife lol

 

What inspires you to keep making music?

I do my job for pay the bills

 what does creativity mean to you?

For me creativity is the fact to could create something that doesn’t exist yet

oh, and who do listen to currently?

A lot of drum and bass and Jazz hip hop

Any specific bands or musicians?

  • Tribe called quest

  • Bob Marley

  • Massive Attack

  • Miles Davis

  • John Coltrane

  • Prince

Good list.

What is your favourite quote in French or English?

Serge Gainsbourg

Ooh, what quote of the Serge Gainsbourg do you like?

Couleur café

(song  or quote ?)

Chanson! What does mean quote?

citation

L’Amour physique est sans issue

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