Passed Humanities degree

I’ve finally received my results for my 1st year, doing my Masters, in Creative writing.

Drum rolls.

PASS-with merit. I officially can use more random letters after my name — ha ha!

I  am now in possession of a post-graduate certificate in the Arts and Humanities!

Wow! Amazing.

How’s this going to help me with what I won’t do?

I have a dream.

I do. 😀

One of my goals is to move back to France. They love people with diplomas. I hope to get a well paid job there. I need to book a trip to The French embassy later on this year. My husband has decided he is going to take on my surname and become a French national.  He’s English!

He’s not only English, he is  Northern, from  West Yorkshire.



I feel so uneasy about my family not having a passport. My entire life, It was drummed into me to always have my passport (in date)in case, we moved countries.

Which we did- a lot!

Moving on . ( pun unintentionally intended  :D)

What’s  happening in my life?

Loads of shit- ha ha! as usual.

I’m doing better –  I keep making a come back.  Oh, life – you little tease!

Dare me to live.

 Dare me to succeed!

Challenge accepted.




Yeah, it’s been.

up and down,

down ,

down ,

down –

up again ,

very up –

insanely manic,



not quite sure

,emotional ,

aargh why did that and that and that and ..

did I do that?

Those kind of moments, really.

Surely someone can relate?

Not happy about a medication increase in my anti depressant.

I don’t of any person who is on  (high/ highest legal doses) of

Two antidepressants

Two anti psychotics

Two anti anxiety tablets,

and sleeping medication.

I know  my health posse want the best for me.

I don’t bullshit them.

I tell if I’ve been using shit coping mechanisms, good ones. Thoughts ,feelings…

I made my psychiatrist laugh.

Go me!

He offered me psychology therapy — again .

I was like:

‘Look Dr J, seriously every time I sign up to a pyschologist , they leave!’

 All my psychologists have left me half way through  doing whatever new pycho babble, current trend treatment , is used, to deal with folk such as myself.

One dude, fell asleep in a couple of our sessions.

So, I was like

‘ Listen, I know how to use CBT/DBT, I know how to communicate and talk. I know what keeps me well . I just want a cure’

Another laugh escapes from Dr J.

He is a legend.

A legend ? yes, but not a wizard 😦

He totally gets me and I feel I have a choice in medication changes etc..

I’ve asked to come off one of my meds because I don’t see the point of being on it. It hasn’t helped me.

These meds have affected my memory. I’m terrified of getting Dementia. I’ve been on (legal) tablets since I was 13/14 and I’ve never been off medication.


Talking about memory.

I’m using my creative outlets to start getting into the open mic poetry scene .

I love performing but my memory is really rubbish. I’m going to brave it by doing more live poetry next week. I’m excited. Nervous.  It’s all good.

I have my final year of my MA to keep me — super  occupied.  There is a lot of work to do. For part of my thesis ( check me out)

I’m thinking of using my blog to interview creative folk who live in my community to talk about, their work,  (durr!)  Creativity and their mental health. My photographer mate is on board to take pictures. Some people have shown interest — yeah!

My heads occupied which is good.



How will doing this  help me with my thesis and final work?

Well, I am going to use this year of discovery and research on the link between mental health and creativity as an alternative form of therapy to cope with life’s unpredictable moments.

Then I  will have loads of inspiration to write a film script (120 minutes) on a character ,who , is thrown back into society after a long stint in mental /prison  institutions , and who is looking to find him/herself  and another way of being  and expressing him/herself  positively, in society.

The opening scene will kind of look like this

I have an ending – (a bit abstract at the moment) – saying there words:

‘I look around for the first time with clarity. And see I’m exactly where I need to be. Around the misfits. The beautiful misfits just like me.’


It’s all early days and I still have  4 scripts to write, a critique and a character  analysis on a famous playwright to do before the final chapter.

All in all. I’m alive, optimistic-ish, full of emotion, drive, passion , a pain in the ass but just doing my thing. 

All terribly boring really… 😀 

So, I am back!

I can’t commit daily to blogging but I have joined a group on Facebook.  

Shout out to Gary @ fiction is food  for adding me.

It’s a website for us!



 I’m  a newbie, its good be around other bloggers again. I’m hoping it will keep me  off Facebook and keep me connecting with people like yourself. People who use their time more productively. Doh, oh the irony.

One rant before I go :   I wish people would stop leaving public posts about my appearance on my Facebook.

If you ever happen to read this

I know you are having a shit time dealing with your own weight issues. I’m well aware of mine. Please take a look at yourself. Look after yourself first. If you don’t – FUCK OFF! 


That is a wrap.  I know. Hilarious! ha ha!

Thank you so much for reading

Time to step out and live real life..

Catch up soon!

What’s everyone else doing with life?  Blogging?

I’m genuinely curious to know.







About Daisy Willows

'Words are my everything' - Jon Wayne . A writer of poetry, stories, stage scripts, fiction, border line poetry & freestyle works, Music reviews, Guest Features/interview & shout outs. She is also passionate about raising anti-stigma & awareness for Mental Health. A trained co-facilitator in Wellness Recovery Action plan by Mary Ellen Copeland Natasha goes by many moniker names-Daisy Willows, bahtuhkid, GOAT2Bdazee. She has had a colourful life. Travelled. Natasha co-owns a second-hand clothing & accessories business -La Bella Bijoux Ltd Natasha was born in South Africa & is a French national. She currently resides in the UK Natasha Bodley holds a postgraduate in the Humanities. A BA in Myth in the Greek and Roman worlds & Advanced creative writing. She also holds a Foundation degree in Acting performance. She is currently working on her first novel (semi-autobiographical creative non-fiction). She has published one short story on Amazon called 'Number one' Connect with Natasha Collaborate with Natasha & feel free to Communicate her too. Light, Peace & Love!

Posted on May 31, 2020, in MY WORLD and tagged , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 50 Comments.

  1. judeitakali

    Congratulations Daisy, that’s great news 🌼

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  2. Congratulations! All very exciting! All very scary! All very right-where-you-should-be! All wonderful (did I say all very scary?) Very happy for you! Scary, yes, but good scary ❤

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  3. congrats on the certificate and great results! and yay relate to the mental health crap. totally get that. xo

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  4. Daisy – congrats – you have spectacular page – I just like your Facebook page, could you please support and like my page, here us the link:

    Thank you!

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  5. Daisy, congrats and I love your spunk. You will succeed in everything you do! Good luck and may your dreams come true.

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  6. Daisy my friend. Don’t be nervous about the ‘Open Mic poetry’. You’re going to be great.
    Be strong, positive and you’ll be good. I know how you feel about getting nervous to read
    in front of people. I’ve been through it so many times before and after while, your nerves and stage fright go away and reading in front of people feels like your a singer and you own the stage and the mic. You feel good and confident. Trust me. 🙂

    Think of your husband while your on stage. He will give you strong support and encouragement, and hope.

    Tell your husband I said ‘Hello’ and give him a big hug from me. 🙂

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  7. Daisy, I love this for you. Onward and upward (upword, too – {not up yours, in case there’s a misinterpret}) You are definitely headed for success.

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  8. Yay ! Drum roll for sure !!! Congrats !!! I am so happy for you. I knew you’d do well. x

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  9. Congratulations! Well Done! Stay on ‘the UP’…don’t let anyone/anything drag you ‘DOWN’…… Loving Hugs! ❤

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  10. Congratulations on passing your first year. It’s summer time where I live and I’m going to take a break – taking a trip to Peru next week (yeah where its winter there and the high reaches 60 degrees…ha).

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  11. summerSHINES

    I love this post. You’re fab ❤

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  12. Congratulations! So, so happy for you 🙂
    To France, great…another place to visit during one of future holidays, haha
    Sending you a big hug Beautiful Soul! XxX

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    • TY ❤ straight back to you. I've been wanting to move back to France since I arrived in the U.K. -life and shenanigans got in the way – (shaking my fist at the sky) ha ha! Yeah, so it's where I want to finish my life -well, for now it is. Start over, start afresh. I will email you soon re: your email duh! lol It won't happen until my masters is finished but it's happening. :D. you, Patty are always welcome to visit x

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  13. not every dream is what it would seem
    the light
    of being
    an art of clay
    is the thing to remember

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