The suicidal coward.
I’m feeling suicidal
I can’t deny the concoction of escapism acts help keep me in denial.
Too many people looking out for me
I haven’t had enough time or privacy to actively find a sure way to make sure I’m undisturbed absolute in my effort to be free
My daughter deserves better
I can’t connect with her
I’m not blaming anyone else for my failure to join the dots.
A girl succeeded in jumping off suicide bridge in 2019
I wonder if this morning will have an impact on my odds of survival – washed up in the river. The law doesn’t get I don’t want to be saved.
My calculations are all wrong.
I’m not doing this because of an income
9 months later after an ESA inquest assessment
And I’m safe till 2022
thanks for letting me know
Government Orange agent.
It doesn’t make me happy to know that I don’t have to show up & prove I’m ill
Everyone else has a hard time at proving they are beyond over the mental /psychical capacity hill
They are sick
Why can’t I CAN’T KEEP MY MIND STILL?
The odds of taking an overdose tonight getting it right are slim.
I need to run a warm bath and make sure I hit an artery
let the blood bad
bad blood leave me
Circulate not from within
I should have this right.
I’m in support of the assisted dying law for those whose aguish is terminal
a mental psyche destroyed with life’s poison.
I still haven’t eaten.
This isn’t poetry
I’m borderline convinced I’ve lost the plot. I told too many people my plans & now I’m living with the consequences.
Keep my daughter safe from me
She deserves to better. I m certain that better is far away from a mind convoluted by past & insight into the mother I am not.
Posted on Aug 7, 2019, in MY WORLD and tagged Depression, Emotions, Life, Living with Mental illness, mental health awareness, MY WORLD, parenthood, Relapse, self destruction, self harm, Self medication, suicide awareness, WRITE TO RECOVER. Bookmark the permalink. 5 Comments.