Tick Tock! Still awaiting the results of my first TMA.
No time to rest and already onto the next one. I am the kind of writer who gets an idea and then I just start writing – I like to get the story out before going over it and picking it to pieces, re-plotting it , the dreaded cutting stages.
I’m so frustrated – My next assignment is to write a 2000 word stand-alone piece of fiction. Not so hard right?
Well, unless you have my brain.
Got to get this out.
In my head, I have come up with a story ( shit or bad) – I don’t know but it wants to write itself and indeed it already has.
The problem being I’ve written over 1000 words already- just putting together the bare bones of the story and I still have yet to get into the internal /external conflict of the characters. Plot it just right etc.
I know if I carry on with this narrative – it could end up with maybe 3500 words!
My brain hurts. Why don’t I just abandon a complicated, plotted story and find another to write about?
That would mean giving up and letting go.
I do not let go or give up easily- be it my work, my passion, people.
Yes, I am stubborn.
Does anyone else who writes fiction have this problem? I (bear in my mind I am learning to write for novels ) and in this assignment and I have to write a stand-alone piece of 2ooo words)
I know. I know.
There is more than just me (the only student) studying and needing my “precious” story to be marked.
I DON’T CARE!
I do. Just not right now. 🙂
I also have my other bigger script to worry about and my brain is flipping from one to the other. Deadlines!
So why am I so wanting to tell this particular story?
I want to challenge myself – create a more complex plot.
Go way out of my comfort zone. So far, successfully achieving this to my detriment.
Then, I have to share on a forum , with other writers and comment on their work and wait for them to comment on mine. Lovely.
I am a generous person. The first person to offer to read someone’s work but not everyone is the same.
It would make for a boring world, I agree.
Nevertheless, it is still frustrating.
So, here is the premise in a small nutshell
Betty is married to a kind and loving husband who has supported her her throughout their relationship/marriage,she has DID ( Dissociative identity disorder)and has so far responded well to a new radical form of therapy to treat her disorder. Or has she?
It would appear that she has come to some kind of inner peace with her alternates through engaging with said therapy. She bumps into the past, an ex from college or uni- something doesn’t feel right but she is drawn to him.
Her symptoms start coming back an, example, losing track of time.
One remainging, undiscovered alternates has managed to dupe her. Back in college her old flame -lets call him -Steve- fell in love with one of her alternatives- the seductive, provocative – Lola -everything Betty isn’t.
It didn’t end well. Lola couldn’t compete with Betty and all the other emotions/alternates that were playing out in her mind and her life at that time and Steve left her.
Betty doesn’t know about this other alternate or their true history together. Steve and Lola come up with a cunning ,deadly plan to be together. Lola is determined to be the dominate personality (she won’t compromise her wants) and she will do everything in her power to be able to be with her past lover – even if it means making Betty believe that her husband, Roger is the one cheating on her! Expect a bloody ending but whose blood?
Okay. Sounds really simple 😉 but there is so much information I have in my head. Ideas of how Betty gets manipulated by her ex-lover and Lola.
Do I start in Media res? -bearing in mind,this the first time I have written it down and it does need polishing. Excuse the cliches.
BANG! –the sound synchronized with their clock chiming, a ghastly wedding present, and the longest announcement to confirm it was 6 pm. A demonized scream left Betty’s mouth – as blood splatters stained her face to complement the abstract disarray of Betty’s current surroundings. The remnants of a wistful, discarded soul arrested Betty’s own eyes for what seemed a lifetime, before the body crumpled to heap on the bedroom living carpet– someone so strange yet at the same time familiar. A glint of metal. Another thud. This defined how far Betty had veered this time.
“Betty, Betty come to me”, a calm familiar voice reached the ear hairs of Betty- clearly orienting her to look behind her. Every bone in her body seized up.
Do I start with a more startling- more fact-based opening: like this:
They say that we should always leave our past well alone. If only I had done so. If only I could have foreseen the danger, it would bring me. How could I? I am merely human- subject to my environment, emotions and experiences.
It’s all there in my head and some of it on my word doc. but it will be more that 2000 words.
I need help.
In my commentary (which is something I have to do for all my assignments is to reflect on many factors – one being my thoughts and challenges writing in the Script genre versus the fiction genre. There is a lot more I can reflect about.
Plot? – I am going to have loads to say about overcoming that challenge. haha . I’ve lost it. 😀
Opens /endings – middles
The list goes on and on.
I’m feeling that pressure of a challenge coming on.
I could just write some uncomplicated story to attempt to tick boxes but how will I ever develop as a writer if I play it safe?
Or am I being too ambitious?
Do I carry on with this story? using what I learn in the MA study guide materials and my own independent research ,to aid me, to tell this story to the s.t.i.p.u.l.a.t.e.d.length ?
Or, am I setting myself up for failure?
Am I being too cocky?
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think I am an amazing writer .
I do believe in having the right in being able to express myself creatively and writing is one way I get to do that. I read a cool article this morning- link here
That’s just my personal take, but more generally I feel like the arts are such an important part of how we understand ourselves, how we laugh at ourselves, how we make sense of reality. ‘Listening to a record that you love, reading a novel that you love – it connects you more forcibly into life. For your mental health, it’s extremely important that people are accessing that part of themselves, tuning into other people’s creative expression, expressing themselves.’
Comments appreciated. Thanks for reading.
MINI LIFE UPDATE
I’m slowly moving our company online. Here is a link to my online shop -eek!
Don’t worry I don’t expect you to buy anything. But feel free to follow me on instagram and Facebook – (slightly cheeky but sadly writing doesn ‘t pay the bills 😦 )
LOOK AT MY SHAMAZING GRAPHIC DESIGN SKILLS 😀 HA HA -sarcasm alert!
I haven’t even finished 3/4 of the whole online shenanigans yet.
Tomorrow will be spent all day working on developing our business.
My daughter is doing so well – check out all her certificates that she has received -all in one semester/ term. So proud.
Will be catching up with all my fave blogs in between of all of this. I love all you all!