When OCD got messy
Caught out -overindulging on sexual delicacies.
Orgasming, glow in the dark visuals projected onto her Fantasia cranium mental ceiling.
So novel.
Walls cave in – was it just lust that caused her to make up all this fuss?
Why did she do it?
once. twice. three times?
Her heart was consumed. ‘Rose-tinted glasses’ a voice shouts out and presumes.
She thinks there was real depth to some of her proclaimed emotions. How can she even look at another confectionary when she already has the sweetest deal?
Her dowry is her very own Wonka factory.
There was no excuse for her to set foot out of her mind and demand to feel more satisfied.
Does momma know her better than she does?
Always want what you can’t have! 5-year-old drops to the floor.
Toys R Us.
Not leaving till she comes outs with a red, tanked up, M&M replica bus.
Ready to dice herself up and fling herself into a blender – sexting, texting -somewhat fulfilling,
but not having anyone else to indulge with afterwards, leaves her with a rebellious sense that can only be satisfied by means of tangible bondage-style correcting.
Honest to a breaking point.
Target those she wants to anoint.
Commitment. Did she truly know what she was taking on?
She realized her demise when she demanded the same form of commitment from some other, partly innocent feckless person in an ‘ I’m- doing -alright‘ disguise.
Bonfire night explosions went off in their usually tranquil home.
He sat back too long, let her spirit roam and defend its right to move within another astral zone.
Kitchen sink drama screams, sweeping up the spindly staircase.
Mother clocks eyes with her child, rubbing her slumbered eyes – run to pick her up and wipe away salty tears from her face.
Heart beating wildly. What has she done?
The sickly cost of seeking out more affection afflicting her startled young.
Time to move forward.
She has respect, love, honesty, faithfulness, a family, laughter and more than she ever thought she deserved. This place under the shady protective arms rooted to the spot – she truly earned
Time to act like a true woman, tend to her man and family-like one would a tree – keep those roses -tidy, pruned – this time the tree still stands.
May lightning strike her heart and torment the rest of her living days if this time she hasn’t learned.
Posted on Nov 6, 2016, in MY WORLD and tagged Emotions, Family matters, guilt, Life, Love. Bookmark the permalink. 14 Comments.
Daisy, I must say – you are ready to assemble a book of stream of consciousness. If you publish a book of that creation. I will buy it. 🙂
I love what you are creating. Daisy, keep on writing stream of consciousness. Your message is important to the world. 🙂
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Charlie! Never thought about putting a SOC writing book out there… mmmmh dream big right 😀 . ❤ hope all is well.
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You should compile all your works and putting together for a book. I know you can do it Daisy. I believe in you. 🙂
P.S got a new new poem. 🙂
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Your mind! Charlie – one day? just one day in,that mind of yours. It’s the 13/11 soon. I wish I could just pop over to LA to support you. I will be thinking of you. You are going achieve what most people can’t even dream about! Love the new poem’ humans invented time’ vs ‘time invented humans’ -one of faves. Hugs, pal
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Thank you ,Charlie. Not on here as much as I want to be,these days . Can’t wait to read your new poem.
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What a very novel response 😇😉 . Happy Sunday Daisy
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Haha T Y Ellen and what a novel comment xx 🙂
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As it should be x Do come over and read mine 😉 I have I think read every bodies wonderful efforts.
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Ellen, that blew me away. Socs story – I’m going to be picking your brain for tips in the next coming months when I need to write a 2000 ish 😉 word fiction piece. Did you choose the picture as an inspiration or just rely on the prompt word? You have a new fan xxxx
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What a journey, delightful read. Well done.
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Thank you Mother of the willows. You are always welcome here xxxxx
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As always, so enjoyable. Hugs! ❤
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❤ hugs back TY
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