Conscious heart

I just wanna be free from this heartache.

I don’t hardly know you and you bewitched me, yeah you bewitched me alright.

I know I can go acting all crazy – I have nothing but my insight.

Bliss bliss – just wanna feel this bliss.

I got scared I felt like I got bypassed – missed -dissed.

I covered my true emotions from you cos I was afraid you were gonna reject me .

See, I didn’t know…..

I didn’t know.

I don’t hardly know you and you bewitched me – yeah, you bewitched me alright.

Didn’t mean to cause no fright .

Connections were made when I felt your beat – it moved my feet.

You got me dancing – all I wanna do – all I wanna do –

is dance – feel these beats – merge , combine.

sublime – is that truly a crime?

I don’t hardly know you and you bewitched me – you bewitched me,alright.

I just wanna be free of this heartache.

Checked every lotion I got to remedy this potion.

Stuck in reverse.

My heart is not well versed.

All I wanna do is reach out – yeah, reach out.

I keep getting rejected.

Emotions are not my rationale.

I consume triple portions –

I am about to implode.

All I wanna do is reach out – yeah reach out to you.

I just wanna be free,

wanna be free,

free to dance and merge our beats.

Sensations to make me feel, something resembling a full pie chart -a work almost   incomplete.

I know I can go acting all crazy. I have nothing but my insight.

This is my soul bared- naked as they day you undressed me.

I came to you.

Yeah, I came to you; bare, vulnerable.

I just wanted you to know – I wanted to you to know .

I ……

I….

My heart can’t be reasoned with. I’m breathing.

It is real.

Not cognitive dissonance.

Laid myself naked and bare.

Rejected.

Rejected.

I just wanna be free from this heartache……..

* Inspired by…………. lol . I’m a tactile person*

photo credit  

Untitled. (Death of a Chicken.) 1972. Ana Mendietta.

 

18 comments

    • Yes, Akhila. It is that moment when I say ‘Im not going to push away the emotions- no matter how painful- embrace all emotions’
      It hurt. I find once I start accepting all emotions and sitting with them- I feel . I can also think about what other emotions felt like. How it is possible that in time -an hour/ a week/ a month / a year – eventually -I will feel something else.

      I’ve always run away from my feelings. Tried to cloud them with something else. I don’t want to do that anymore.
      For me, there is a renewed respect and deeper level of understanding t the saying:
      ‘How can you truly embrace the emotion happiness if you have never felt or embraced true sadness’ – That is my version of the quote

      Take care.

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