Her Legacy.
Coming from a place of Fury. Never go to sleep with an angry mind so I saved it for waking up on my side of the bed.
Move two steps and three paces backwards, doubts plague me. Dementia ‘s grey cloak veils all I want to retain in my head.
The sheep get weary before I do.
I watch them sleep.
Wolf-like I want to smash through them. Fangs connect -impact on bone and tissue -a red massacre.
I need colour in my life.
This visceral creativity is swallowing me whole. I’m in the bottle – blurred images are all I see on the horizon.
Spin the bottle,maybe I will land in a place with less strife.
Cramming in mouthfuls of
anxiety,
self-loathing,
head battering, assault weapons of thoughts.
I’m bloated to the state that my discontentment leaves me, like a sleepy wide-eyed owl – manic in my state – shoving in fistfuls – I need to lucubrate.
Nothing sticks except the whiff of the end of a successful selling day at a Parisian fish market.
I am the babe the market seller gave birth to. Times up for this broody bird to incubate.
Cord snapped with a fish gutting knife. Abandoned the moment money exchanged hands.
Only enough for a Meal for one. Survival is my greatest chance. Nurture myself and hone in on any innate talents now, so I can control the succession of Fates brass bands.
It is my birthday. I get one day to shine. Tomorrow I could be slapped away with one salty breathe, inflicted wounds forgotten with yesterday’s newspapers headlines.
I came into this world with the cards I was dealt. I can cry a Seines- full of tears for the life that could have got caught up in the catch of the day fisherman’s net lines.
I refuse to be that inmate -on a bed of foliage, with one glassy eye, staring up at you. Doesn’t matter how well you dress me up – my fate is not to be found in a 5-star Michelin restaurant.
Grill me, poach me, puree me- see what happens when you try and throw me in the oil fryer.
This amphibian has wings of hope. Higher consciousness has blessed me with a generous grant.
I soar above all the conventional career options for my kind.
I will never be normal and for that, I will not apologise.
Evolved -a hybrid.
I have to decline your maverick binds.
Today I walk with two legs and two eyes looking forward. Destiny is a start and thanks to you, dear mother,for letting me find my own way.
I took my life into my own hands – my heart beats with passion,drive, ambition and the fear.
I have made it this far – so either stick by me and support me in what I do or feel free to stand out of my way and go astray.
Posted on May 31, 2022, in STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS COLLECTION and tagged Creative Writing, Creativity, Emotions, Stream of consciousness, Thoughts, Vocabulary, writing prompts. Bookmark the permalink. 55 Comments.
Thanks for stopping by. I’ll defo check your website out x
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Nice
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Thank you so.much for reading. I’m glad you enjoyed it
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Splendid n hearttouching.
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Very well written and powerful analogies presented with impact. Well done π
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Wow!
I’m amazed at the response I’ve received on this piece. It isn’t planned . It isn’t edited . It’s all a words that tumble out . I often think I don’t make sense. I’m truly emotional and feel so honoured that you have enjoyed my writing..
Lovely to meet you.
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Thsnk you
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πππβοΈ WOW… that’s dramaticπΉβοΈ
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Lol I’m not lnown for subtle. THANK YOU so much reading. It menas a lot.
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Beautifully written
I followed you all the way
Thank you for visiting
Sheldon
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Thank you Sheldon. You make me feel rather special. Thank you again. π I will be visiting again. I’m just super busy at the moment. I hardly have time to post or blink. lol …. Catch up with you soon. π
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It’s all good
I’m not going anywhere to soon
π
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lol π
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DiTW..Do you have an algorithm for this (or any chance you can try to express this mathematically) please? Don’t worry if not, but it might be an interesting challenge to explore this numerically. I tried applying my binomial formula but this comment box doesn’t take super or subscripts or other symbols so I couldn’t add my attempt! Take it easy gal…best wishes as ever π
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WOW! What a challenge indeed. If anybody can get a pattern of what comes out of my mind- I will be impressed and super honoured. I am not a mathematician but don’t let that stop you! Far from it! Take care!
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You write so beautifully ππ’π
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Really? Thank you – xx
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Wow Daisy, that was a brilliant piece!
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Hello Stranger. Thank you so much – hope all is well x
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All is well sweetheart, busy busy with girls through summer hols, I’ve popped in and out of WP when I need some sanity restored π hope all good with you too xx
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Yes. Amazing how my Bella doesn’t like to leave my side! Ha. I have also got a busy few months coming up. I’m a bit scared but I once I get into the flow I should be fine. I should have more quiet time with Bella going to full-time school in Sep. I don’t know how I am going to balance blogging with the rest of my life -so I need to prioritize. I guess we all have the same kind of life balance issues .
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No matter how hard we try to put out best face on, sometimes it pisses us off to have to deal with this crap. And then we move on.
Good job!
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So true, Rob. Writing helps. None of this happened to me or anyone I know of. I was frustrated with a certain community but I chose to rise above it π
If I feel I am being ignored or not feeling good in myself ,I find writing is a powerful tool and much better than ending up in prison – ha ha!
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Your imagery is excellent. One second I was sad and the next I was laughing.
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Thank you,Bradley! Now that is impressive. I am super happy with these words – as long as ou happy now ? π
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The reference to the sheep getting weary before you and watching them sleep had me laughing out loud. Awesome post, Daisy! π
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Ha ha. Ever had one of those nights, Brenda? xx TY
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Far too many which may be why I found it so funny. I still do. π
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LMAO xx
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That imagery got to me. I’ve never been successful at counting sheep ‘cos mine never manage to jump over the fence, they run into each other and create a bottleneck. Ha!
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ha ha -that is so funny! That has really tickled me, Jackie x
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Hahaha π I’m still laughing as I type π It doesn’t work for me either. Mine would probably just wait for some music to start playing so they could start the party-complete with a disco ball. Next thing we’re all dancing and there goes sleep out the window haha π
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What a bunch of disco biscuits. You would think they could at least slip us a sleeping pill! π
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WOW !
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β€ XXX
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Wonderful writing!
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Hey Alexis, thank you. It was coming from a place of frustration. ha ha
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Another whirlwind! I love it, Daisy!
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MEGA WATT SMILE TY MEG! XX
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Welcome!!!
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This is a beautiful piece of article that you have composed. I could actually immerse myself into the lives of two different organisms β a fish and a human! This is great! Keep writing! Keep inspiring.
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Hi Karthik. WOW! I am blown away by your comment. Thank you . I intend to do what I love xxx Thank you again – take care π
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You are meant to do this. Don’t stop. Bleed words. ππ
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Of course, if I am going to bleed -it will be for a passion and something or someone I love π Thank you so much for your support. It really means more to me than you can ever know. π
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Hi Daisy, you were tagged on my blogπ https://eddaz.com/2016/08/23/awards-and-tags/
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I β€ the tag. #superhero WOOP! can't wait to do it xxx Thanks for thinking of me xxxxx
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Yes it’s funππYou are welcomeπ
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Lovely and delightful play of words
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Thank you Etta x
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BIG HUGS!!!!! Delightful word….’lucubrate’….can’t remember when last I read/heard it…must be a few decades ago. π More Hugs! β€
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ha ha! That long ago! π
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Time flies…. π Hugs!
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ha ha ha ha
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