Thoughts about letting go
Okay I might as well get it out now.
20 guests have been invited to our wedding on the 22/06/2016. Invitations were sent out ages ago. Everyone confirmed and then Life happened.
Everyone on the list is not expendable. In our books they are chosen for specific reasons.
Five of the guests -a family – are chosen for being the ones that brought me and my King together.
I don’t know if they will make it (I’ve asked them to tell us on many occasions) because of their current situation. It is a matter of life and death. I understand life happens but this is our wedding and after many phone calls and chats; I don’t think I will be in a forgiving mood if they don’t make it.
Another couple is literally family. I’ve asked repeatedly over the months if they are sure that their health issues won’t affect them from coming to the wedding.
A lot of mixed signals and I’m dubious.
I’m quite sure that my two bridesmaids will be there considering the money invested in making them feel beautiful on the day. I have not gone all bridezilla on them . The only thing I made clear was I wanted their hair to be flowy and boho – up and down , plaits and not fussy with loads of crap in their hair.
I don’t want to fall out with people I have known for many years and people I will get to know in the years to come; over something that is not life threatening.
Hair – unless it involves losing it should not be a big fucking issue!
I’m starting to doubt my own hair do and thank fuck I am having another trial soon.
I am quite positive that four of the guests will be there – unless some travesty happens and of course that would not be be their faults.
The final guests I am kind of hoping won’t have any kind of issue on the day- I understand people get sick. I would always put my friends and families health before my own happiness.
One guest is our daughter. She is coming.
The thing is: Our wedding day is a once in a life time event.
There are many people we wanted to invite but we had to be really strict so we could have our wedding day, and make sure that every guest is catered to and has the very best we have to offer them ,to thank them for celebrating our day: with us.
I can’t control this. It is bigger than me and I’ve got to the point now where I have to sing ‘ Let it go’ because I’m a fucking first time bride – worrying about making sure everyone else is happy while I don’t get a chance to worry about my own hair, make up, health state etc..
I know I am having a bride to be rant. I didn’t want to post it because it is so…..
I hate being predictable but I want my guests to be predictable.
Isn’t that a bit of a catch 22 ?
So I’m letting go and will have an epic day in spite of what happens on the day.
I love everyone who is going to be there but there are also a lot of other people I love to pieces who I wanted to be there too.
My mantra up until the wedding is this little gem