Thank you Charlie. I will be honest with you I have never felt secure in myself from a young age -I starved ,drugged myself from a young age because people would give me mixed messages. I tended to fall into toxic friendships and relationships where men and women would openly mock me. They sensed I was self conscious and used their own insecurities to shine a light on mine and detract from theirs. I never let a lot of men get close. I have been called frigid. Some men who publicly slurred me would on the quiet try and screw me. It is messed up. Some guy would be interested and the next moment a girl would point and whisper something in my direction and I was the weird girl again. I have been ill and hiding behind drugs/alcohol was my way of coming out of myself. Many people have made sure I never believe in anything contrary to what they could plainly see I believed for a long time. I would get invites from some girls to go out and when the guys came over to chat us up – I was always very I hate this whole chat up scene. I loved to dance but other friends only went out to get a guy so as soon as they found one. I got dumped. I have had guys openly say things about my figure and my looks all my life. All aimed at keeping me in my place. I’ve had men beat the shit out of me. I have had girls call me things like -anorexic bitch. No friend has ever told me I am beautiful and most guys have tried to mock me or make out like I am nothing. Oh except when they tried to fuck me. These days I know I am as beautiful as the next girl. There are many beautiful girls out there and unfortunately their are a lot f people who want the crown of queen bee and don’t want to share it with only the select few. I thought when I left school -all that shit would end. These days I know what I am and what I am not. When people like the girl who told me I had put on weight on my hen do on Saturday night spout their venom- I throw it back in their court. All the men who try and keep me in my place or feel inferior or fuck knows what they think I hold my head up high because I know who I am. I know I am a good person and I know that a lot of the people who have put me down by ignoring me, labelling me or whatever are the people with the most fucked up sense of self esteems. Son , NO – I am not used to hearing those words except from my mother and the man I am going to marry. I know I am just attractive as the next girl and I have inner respect and enough self love these days to keep away the toxic people out my life. I surround myself with people who make me feel good and every girl and guy I see act all insecure. I go up t them and I tell them what I think makes them beautiful to me. Too many haters in this world. So thank you for the compliment. I am not going to lie. It does make me feel good about myself. So thank you for the lovely comments 🙂 you are a good soul

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