Transparent its apparent #Socs


Apparent-ly ,I was not  as prepared for the whole love you in sickness in health bit of our binding vows when we get married in June.

Weeks away from the wedding and I find out a week ago that my husband to be has been going blind in his right eye.


He didn’t bother to casually mention it to me, in the the month that his detached retina ,has got further and further away from his eyeball to the point if he left it any longer; he may  just need a cane. I’m not talking about this kind.


I was full of rage and disappointment.  Sometimes I want to  throw stones at the martyrs in my life.

I DO!  (I  only ever wanted to have to think that on my wedding day? πŸ˜€


We joked about the   Stevie Wonder rumours  yesterday and how epic it would be if he actually put a stop to all the rumours of him faking he is blind.



I’m lucky to have a partner that came from parents who use humour to  get on with life’s shake ups. My family do the same.

It sure takes the edge off the reality of the situation.

I just want to put out  on this post how much I rely on my G. He is a diamond – a star.  I know there are those gifts you can buy and name a star after someone you love. This to me screams ‘you being taken for a ride’.


No monetary value can have a hold on the one I love.

The full package. The rarest of them all. The beat to my heart.

I say this all the time about him and my Bella bee – they are what makes my heart go

kerr-  dum  ker- dum ker- dum… not so dirty dancing..



Speaking of dancing . We are not having a first dance.

I think it would be awesome to have one but G is not keen. I’m  not expecting him to bust out some ‘put your back  into it’ moves –

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I’m not going all Missy Elliot on him.


He can if he wants  too……

but in all truth –  I would love to dance to this song with him..


Oh fuck! Shit… ‘THEM THERE EYES !

This is how my mind works?

 I love my man’s eyes…. I’m not taking the piss here.

I am being 100% authentic and real.

I dedicated that song to G when I met him…

I’ve been on a high since the SS  have exited our lives and I went a  bit party hardy but I’ve calmed down since NYE.

Living the quiet life..

 monastic excitement  only.


I find out the news about this surgery he is going to have in two weeks time.

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The surgery seems  pretty straight forward. .

It is what he has to NOT do after the surgery which will predict success or epic failure.

I fucking loathe complaining.


I don’t know who else to talk to .

 Everyone I know comes  to talk to me and I can’t just stop some -one mid sob and go:

” Shut the fuck up . Back the fuck up . I need help .I feel like I  am a shit wife to be. Can I hack this? Do my man proud.?Be a real  woman and put on my big but sexy panties? “

I’m not going to go all renegade master on my G.

I’ll don my sexy ‘SUPER NURSE’  outfit on  and I will get back into the groove of doing ALL  the household chores again. We usually split the chores straight down the middle. No grey areas .

I  jest.I jest..

We do work as a team though. It is what works for us.

I’m not used to some one- like the man I am going to marry- getting ill….

Sex is off limits. I am not lying. Well.. I am lying down  but you have to believe me on this one.

I dunno google it..  Ha ha

I’ve got it good and this kind of shock experience makes me appreciate my G  even more. He does so much for me, hides so much.

He protects me.

He can be a stubborn MOFO most of the time but hell, so can I eye .

Fucking terrible joke.  #SOCS I blame thee




So this is where we are at.

I have to thank my Ma and my Nan because they will be looking after Bella Bee so that makes life a lot easier for me.

I don’t fucking cook….


So, take out it is…..

Or maybe just maybe this experience will bring out the traditional wife who cooks, barefoot,  wild flowing  hair, all tits hanging loose.

Where has my courage gone?

 Here is me Me worrying about stepping up and being counted.

Change is good .

I have to  see this is only going to make me and us stronger.

So as apparent as my initial shock is that I am going to be gobbled up by the world that is my oyster. I may just shock myself and bust out all the moves and  yell:


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Whatever we decide  to say in  our  vows on our wedding day. Anything about health and love and standing by my man will be a FACT and not some mere idea. I can say the same for my G.

He has stuck by me with all my toil boil and troubles.

No matter which!

I just have to trust the process of commitment.


This post wouldn’t be without :

 LINDA G. HILLLife in progress – The Friday Reminder and Prompt for #SoCS May 7/16

I will be posting and reading blogs as much as I can after the 19th  May – the day of G’s operation,

My Hen do is  on the 21 st May-

and the stag do after that-

-and then our  epic wedding on the  22nd  June.

I wish I had six heads with 6 pairs of hands   that I could conjure when I wanted .

Oh Genie?

So, I am going to leave you all and have a good old rummage in my mask trunk. I need to find the‘ right faking it till you making it’ mask to don in the next coming weeks.

The show must go on…

Last thing I want to share that always makes me laugh is this


About Daisy Willows

'Words are my everything' - Jon Wayne . A writer of poetry, stories, stage scripts, fiction, border line poetry & freestyle works, Music reviews, Guest Features/interview & shout outs. She is also passionate about raising anti-stigma & awareness for Mental Health. A trained co-facilitator in Wellness Recovery Action plan by Mary Ellen Copeland Natasha goes by many moniker names-Daisy Willows, bahtuhkid, GOAT2Bdazee. She has had a colourful life. Travelled. Natasha co-owns a second-hand clothing & accessories business -La Bella Bijoux Ltd Natasha was born in South Africa & is a French national. She currently resides in the UK Natasha Bodley holds a postgraduate in the Humanities. A BA in Myth in the Greek and Roman worlds & Advanced creative writing. She also holds a Foundation degree in Acting performance. She is currently working on her first novel (semi-autobiographical creative non-fiction). She has published one short story on Amazon called 'Number one' Connect with Natasha Collaborate with Natasha & feel free to Communicate her too. Light, Peace & Love!

Posted on May 7, 2016, in THOUGHTS and tagged , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 29 Comments.

  1. What a busy, exciting, stressful time! And to have a surgery to worry about too!! Ah, I wish you all the best, Daisy. Hang in there. And trust me, once it’s all over and you’re happily wed, you won’t know what to do with yourself you’ll be so damned relaxed! πŸ˜€
    Thanks for making this part of SoCS!

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    • I will be happy when it’s over – ha ha! I have a lot of support. Good people around me. I put my #Socs in early…. thanks for being a muse to write with no fear πŸ™‚


  2. I’m praying that he is okay. Know that there is no problem to big for God to handle and yes you have to be strong. We women are strong when caring for the ones that we love. I’m praying for your strength as well.

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  3. Daisy, that is really sad, I am really sorry about G’s eye issue. I am sure things will be on the up and up after surgery. Thinking of you guys and hope his recovery is quick! BTW, you will be a great nurse πŸ™‚ Hugs x

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  4. daisy, this is so difficult. its hard for both of you. going blind when you have had sight is much harder than if you never had it. i never had sight so i never knew what it was to see, but if i did i think i’d be finding it so hard to cope! i’m sorry he didnt tell you sooner, you need to come to terms with that fact just in case it will happen! sending hugs of support!


  5. Everything will be fine, Daisy. Just love your guy and take care of him when he needs it, like he takes care of you. You’ll be a fantastic nurse (be sure to wear that sexy outfit 😊), I’m sure. πŸ’œ

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  6. Why am I laughing over a serious matter? Oh help me. Daisy, you are having a healthy dose of bridal jitters and your dude will be absolutely fine. Keep all your fingers and toes crossed.

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  7. Though this is a funny post i hope your husband to be will be fine and hope the surgery goes well

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  8. Humor softens the toughest blows …opens up perspectives, wish you the best!


  9. Advanced Research Technology

    I want to see you be brave. Life doesn’t throw at us what we want, only what we need, and only what we attract. Perhaps a little reflection will help. Check out how you’re looking at things. Eye think this may just be the message, and Eye think it may help. I wish you the very best! There is nothing you cannot conquer. πŸ˜‰


    • Ha! Aye Eye Captain! ;0 Thanks ART . I know it will all work out in the end. Your support and belief in me is remarkable. have a great weekend. I’m signing out tonight so I will catch up with you later πŸ™‚

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  10. Wow, you have a hug amount going on. My uncle had to have that operation – all turned out very well – so I have a little bit of understanding. I wish you both all the very best – for everything x


  11. Humor does help us get through the tough stuff. I hope the surgery goes smooth and the recovery is quick!

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  12. Hope it all goes well.

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